Erica Mena And Cyn Santana

Erica Mena

Ive Been Spending Alot Of Time With Babe (Shad Moss). I Then Realized That We Both Have Careers Dealing With Us Being Away From Each Other Time To Time. Ill Be Promoting A Party This Saturday In L.A. And Shad Will Be In New York. I Have Been Thinking About Cyn Lately. Cyn Was My First Girlfriend That I Actually Wanted To Spend My Life With. We Both Said Some Things That There Is No Coming Back From. Cyn Will Always Have And Still Does A Special Place In My Heart Just For Her. King Has The Tendency To Ask Alot Of Questions And Im Hoping He Doesnt Ask About Cyn Just Because I Dont Want To Talk To My Child About Why She Isn't Here Anymore. That Just Something Im Not Ready To Talk About Yet.

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Im Doing Okay These Last Few Weeks. Dealing With The Criticism , Paparazzi And Even The Fans Asking About Certain Things. I Still Havent Got Over My Brothers Death , Still Feeling Guilty In Some Way Like Its My Fault. I Got A Call From My Good Friend Mia Saying She Wants To Talk. And That Just Put The Icing On The Cake. My Heart Is Still Aching From Erica ! I Loved Her Too Much To Stopped Loving Her In A Matter Of A Second. We Go Through Things But This Im Going Through Painfully ! I Wish I Can Back And Change Some Of My Decisions. No I Dont Regret Becoming Erica's Girlfriend I Regret Not Staying And Working Through It. The Saying "I Would Have Been A Fool Not To Stay" I Feel Like Im The Fool But I Left. With The Tears , Heart Break And I Dont Give A Fuck Attitude Not Going Help Me Make Something Out Of Myself. I Feel As Though I Need To Stop Worrying About The Past And Worry About The Present.

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Valentines Day Is Coming Up And I Remember The Things Cyn And I Did Before The Break Up. I Have To Get Cyn Out Of My Head And Move Completely On. I Moved In My Head But My Heart Is Saying Something Different. Im Thinking Of Someways To Make My Babe And I First Valentines Together A Special One. I Thought About Sex , But What Couple Doesn't Make Love On Valentines Day Unless Their Friend Came. Erica Erica Think ! What Would A Man Like For Valentines Day Gift ? I Thought About Jordans But He Has Enough Of Those ! Me Being In His Presence Is A Good Enough Gift To Anybody. That Sound A Little Cocky But Look Who Were Talking About ?

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So Its Valentines Day And Im Cuddled Up With Prince And A Box Of Chocalte. Im On Twitter Then Instagram Then Checking My Emails. I Started Going Through Pictures Thats How Bored I Was. Prince Jumped Off My Bed And Left The Room. Nobody Loves Me Except Prince And My Bed. Been In Pajamas All Day Just Moping Around. Gets Lonely Sometimes But I Work Through It. My Door Bell Rang And I Go To Open The Door. Its Roses And Chocalte My From My Childhood Friend. He's Not An Celebrity And Yes I Said He. Were Not Dating He's Like My Boo On The Side Until I Make Him My Main.

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