Acceptance of Fire

Chapter Four

About a month later the war was over.

The 'let people in' side had won and was celebrating hard. This gave me a push of confidence and I had decided to tell Liam.

Yes, it was risky and yes, it had never worked out well before but this didn't feel like the other times, where I'd given myself a false sense of hope and had practically forced people into being friends with me.

This time I'd been putting off telling anyone ever again and he'd forced himself into my personal space, made himself right at home and carved 'We Are Friends' into my brain, heart and soul.

But my brain, heart and soul didn't quite like that. It was almost what they wanted but not completely.

Emma had also started hanging out with us. Apparently, she'd always noticed me but was too shy to come up to me until Liam made friends with her and dragged her over to me.

It was a Friday afternoon and Liam and I were going over to mine. Emma was coming too for a little bit, but she would have to leave about an hour in because she had planned something with her family for a bit.

When she left, there was an unpleasant tingle in the pit of my stomach but I dismissed it, blaming it on the fact that I had under fed myself last week due to the delivery truck not getting here because of "unknown reasons", (The Presence).

Now was my chance to tell him. "Liam, I have to tell you something..." I say nervously.

"I do too! But you can go first," he exclaims, then he smiles encouragingly as if he can tell that I'm nervous.

"Well, I-" I'm cut off by his phone ringing. He answers, smiling apologetically at me.

"Hello...? Oh hi, Luke... Mmhm... Was that today?!... I'm so sorry mate... Good...Okay, I'm leaving now. See you soon!" He turns to me, looking sheepish. "Imy, I'm really sorry. Can this wait 'til tomorrow? It's just that we've been planning this since my second day here. It's his birthday and I can't ditch him! If it can't wait a day I could come after the game? That's just a couple of hours away. I could say mine then as well." he explains, trying to justify blowing me off.

"But..." I'm about to beg him to stay, say that it's desperately important, but I see the look on his face and change my mind, "-it's fine. It can wait 'til tomorrow. Don't let me stop you." I try to smile at the end but a pang of hurt hits me full on, followed by a wave of jealousy.

I'm jealous of anyone with good friends, of anyone who can do something with their friends with only a split second decision. I'm basically jealous of people with normal lives and actual friends.

While I'd been thinking, Liam had left. This gave me another pang of hurt, this time stronger.

I'm assuming he said goodbye and apologised, otherwise something would be wrong, but in my state of hurt and jealousy, I ignore that and focus on the fact that I didn't hear or notice it.

I really need to calm down, else something might happen. I decide the peacefulness of the woods will help and grab my coat and leave.

^~^

Unfortunately, the peacefulness only gives me time to think about everything wrong in my life, everything I have reason to be hurt or jealous over, and I feel the all too familiar burn in the pit of my stomach.

The feeling grows and I start to panic. I desperately try to calm down.

"Please, no, not now!" I shout, to no one in particular. The tears on my cheeks start to evaporate and there are sparks at the end of my fingers.

I run towards the centre of the woods, trying to take myself away from the town and the people that I could potentially hurt. Looking behind me, I see singe marks from where my feet hit the grass, this does nothing but panic me more.

And that's when I light up.
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