The thought of touching Amanda’s brother was a weird concept to me, but he looked like he was about to kill those girls. I just barely touched his shoulder and he suddenly became more tense.
“Dude Chill.” I said quickly and removed my hand. The kiss was so sudden and so unexpected that I pushed him back. The problem was, unlike last time, he was standing firmly on the ground. This was my first kiss and it was magnificent. He was gentle and passionate. Now I couldn’t tell if I was pushing him or gripping him. He pulls away and his brown eyes are mesmerizing my own.
“Oh, sorry….I did that to uh…..make them….I would never kiss my sister’s friend usually. I mean that is just gross right.” He laughs a little. He thinks I’m gross. Figures. No one this beautiful would go for fat, crazy me. I feel the sting of tears in my eyes. I cannot cry.
“No worries. I understand. That probably pissed them off so bad that they are fuming. And it’s not like I haven’t kissed anyone before.” I hadn’t actually but he didn’t need to know that. “I got to go to the office to grab a piece of paper. Bye.” I walk as casually as I can to the girls bathroom. It was a one person only bathroom and thank goodness for that because the tears were falling and falling fast. I’m gross to the boy who was my new friend’s brother. I gather myself and check to see if it was obvious that I had been crying. It was but only to the people who knew what I looked like when I was crying. I walk out of the bathroom and there is Amanda chilling by the door. “You look like a lost puppy.” I smile down at her.
“Are you okay?”
“Yeah why wouldn’t I be?”
“Well, my brother doesn’t really kiss random girls that often.”
“I’m not random. I’m your friend. He probably thought that I wasn’t going to be weird about it and he is right. It really isn’t that big of a deal. So what if it was my first kiss….”
“It was your first kiss?”
“Yes, but it was an okay sacrifice for those bitches. And he thinks I’m gross right?”
“Did you like it?” She asks me with a mischievous look on her face. Yes. Hell yes. FUCK YES.
“It may have been my first but if all guys kiss like that than I may be a lesbian.” God I’m such an awful liar.
“Oh….good to know.” We both laugh and she shows me to my next class. All I can think about is Oliver and his brown eyes.
