Anomaly/BTS x F. Reader Fluff COMPLETED

Food, Drinks and Honesty

Y/N POV

I swung my legs carefully off of Jimin and Tae before going over and grabbing one of the beers, holding my shot glass out for someone to refill, remembering I was not to refill my own. JK reached forward and refilled my shot glass. I went back to my seat and sat tucking legs under me. Everyone looked over to Hobi who was seated next to Yoongi on the loveseat across the room from me.

"Why were you crying this morning?" He asked.

I sighed and drank some of my beer before putting my bottle down and left the room to grab my wooden box. I came back holding the box and walked right over to Hobi holding my box out for him to take it. He took it from me, recognizing it instantly from this morning.  I backed away and I moved back to my seat.

"Inside that box is every medal I have received in my life." I explained as Hobi opened the box. "Most of those medals were received after nearly dying in the line of duty, or after my entire team was wiped out and I managed to bring their bodies back to base or saving the lives of those I took a bullet for or any other sort of dangerous mission that I had done that nearly killed me."

"Do you know how many people died because I wasn't strong enough to protect them when I was first starting out? Do you know how many families hate me and blame me because I couldn't protect their children from dying? I survived over and over again when people died or were injured. They always said it wasn't my fault and that there was nothing I could have done and that I had done my best, but it doesn't always feel like it. I have spilled blood in order to survive, my life from childhood has basically been about surviving," my voice cracked with emotion, tears threatening to spill down my cheeks. "Those medals are a constant reminder of everything I have ever survived but also of the cost behind it. Yesterday when I was unpacking, I stared at those medals, sitting on the floor of my closet thinking of everything I have been through and how I am now here and started to wonder if it was okay to actually start living? You guys have all been so welcoming and kind and it makes me wonder if maybe I shouldn't hate my past so much since it has led me to you guys... That it is okay for me to start being happy... right?" I finished as tears fell down my cheeks. I covered my face with my sleeve covered hands and cried.

*BTS POV*

'She had cried?' Namjoon thought feeling bad that he had not noticed. He looked back at me when I stood up and walked down the hallway to my room before coming back out with a box. Everyone was looking back and forth between each other worried and beginning to think this was not a good idea. She stopped in front of Hobi handing him the wooden box. Yoongi leaned closer to see what was in box and saw assorted military medals throughout the box. A little haphazardly thrown in but his eyes widened recognizing some medals instantly and others not so much. He turned his attention back to Y/N who was talking about the medals and the pain she was in, of how much she blamed herself.

He noticed the tears and her voice starting to crack. Everyone listened to her and felt their heart break. Jimin and JK both had tears falling down their faces as they listened and watched the tears spill from her eyes. She finished her story and covered her face. Silence settled over the group again before Yoongi spoke up.

"You are so resilient Y/N." Yoongi said just loud enough for everyone to hear. "The fact that you have opened up to us about your pain and doubts is amazing considering we barely know each other. The fact that you recognize that you are in a bad place but are trying so hard to pull yourself out of it and to move forward. I hope that you give yourself permission to move forward and allow yourself to be happy." He finished off. He watched as you slowly dropped your hands from your face to look at him.

"Y/N, my darling, please get the idea that we are going to hate you for your past out your head. You did the things you had to do in order to survive, every step leading you closer and closer to us. You have been through hell and back and we aren't going to turn you away because you survived." Jin said. The rest of BTS looked at Jin and then to Y/N nodding. Jin always knew what to say.

"You really won't throw me away because of what I have been through and done?" She asked looking around at the men in front of me, JK and Jimin drying their eyes, until my eyes connected with Namjoon's.

"We would never throw you out, we will never abandon you, we also will not judge you because of all you have been through." He said never breaking eye contact.

*Y/N POV*

Fresh tears started to trickle down my cheeks, not out of sadness but not exactly out of happiness. 'Could I truly let myself be happy?' I thought to myself, I cannot keep letting my past haunt me. I grabbed my shot of soju and gulped it down, before wiping my face. I stood up and walked over to Namjoon, hesitating slightly before he opened his arms for me. I climbed into this lap and hugged him, whispering "Thank you" in his ear. I kissed his cheek and got off his lap to move to Jin and did the same. I giggled at Jin's red ears before standing up and wandering over to pick up my beer, drinking as I thought over everything said. I turned, and quickly walked over to Yoongi before climbing into his arms, careful to not jar his bad shoulder, kissing his cheek and whispering thank you to him also.

I smiled at Hobi and looked at JK that was now holding my wooden box. "You have a lot of medals" He said. I nodded when he looked up at me. I stood up and wandered over to sit between JK and Jin, peering at the open box in JK's hands.

"Next question." I said feeling more at ease. JK closed the wooden box and handed it to me which I handed to Jin for him to look at before looking back at JK who appeared to be conflicted about something. "What is it Kookie?" I prodded him.

"I feel like I should apologize..." he started, which caused me to tilt my head in confusion. "You know I am a huge fan and I never even considered what you have gone through, that you had a persona to try and embody, and only was allowed to show certain things to the public, and that you were suffering, and for thinking that you were just an awesome Anomaly that went on all these adventures and saved the world and..," "Kookie... Kookie... JUNGKOOK," I yelled cutting him off from his down ward spiral.

He stopped, looking over at me with puppy dog eyes that were brimming with tears. I scooched closer and pulled him into my arms. "Oh, my Kookie," I cooed, "Do not worry. You didn't know and you don't have to apologize. Just know that I may not live up to the hype and your expectations when you get to know me more." I pushed him back a little, so I could make eye contact wiping the couple of tears that that trickled adown his face away with my thumbs. "I may be quirky, dorky and way softer around the edges, behind the scenes, but know I can kick someone's ass if required at any time." I finished with a grin on my face causing Jungkook to grin back. 'It was time to start accepting myself... all of myself.'

I stood up and told JK to scooch over, so we could switch spots.  I leaned back against the arm of the couch with one leg hung off the couch and the other was bent up. I patted my the area just above my breasts, signaling JK to lay on me. His arms wrapped around my waist and his head tucked under my chin. I wrapped my arms around him as we both got ourselves comfortable.

"Next question." I said peering at the guys who were all staring at JK and I cuddled up.