Anomaly/BTS x F. Reader Fluff COMPLETED

Talk to me.

Yoongi's POV

I was fiddling around with the tone and pitch of a melody, making notes for lyrics when a knock on the door interrupted my thoughts. I frowned, "Who is it?" I asked grumpily.

I heard a female chuckle on the other side of the door which caused me to swivel around in my chair to look at my door. "It's me." Y/N called out.

I moved quickly to the door, unlocking it and swinging the door open. She was in a t-shirt that was tucked a bit into her sweatpants and barefoot. Her face looked to be washed clean, though her hair was still styled for the dinner date she went on with Jin and Namjoon. 'Cute', was all I could think.

"Am I interrupting?" She asked looking past me and to the equipment in the room.

"You can interrupt me anytime kitten." I said as I turned waving her into the room. I sat back in my computer chair, watching her walk into the room and the door closing behind her. She looked around taking in the room and décor before coming to a stop in front of me, just out of my reach.

"I can read it all over you face. What you want to talk about?" I said, looking at her concerned.

Y/N's POV

'Kitten?' I melted at the nickname but quickly got back onto my rollercoaster track of a thought process. I knew I was about to babble a bunch of nonsense but prayed Yoongi understood because the need to put what I am feeling into words was freaking me out. I started pacing the room as I began my spew nonsense.

"Um... being an Anomaly has always been a lonely life, even when surrounded by people. People only wanted to know me because of my power, because I am rare, and I feel like sometimes I am in a cage at a zoo and people are looking at me through the bars. I know that will not end any time soon, if ever, and I think that I am okay with that now. Cause I am not alone anymore." I made eye contact with Yoongi but didn't stop my pacing. "Most my life has been a battle to survive, some parts complete hell, but I cannot regret it because I ended up right in front of you guys. Every time I feel bad, or think negatively, some rational thought pops into my head as to why I should not be. This is all because of you guys, always being understanding and accepting of just everything."

"I know it will take time for me to completely forgive everything I have been through and done. To be able to love myself, like you guys always sing and speak about." I stopped pacing in front of him, tilting my head deep in thought. "Maybe I could actually enjoy falling in love." I murmured before waving my hand away like I wanted to chase the thought away.

He scooted forward in his chair and pulled me close pressing his face into my stomach, his hands on the back of my thighs. I put my hands in his hair and ran my fingers through which caused him to sigh and relax.

I continued on, "I was bombarded at the restaurant. People wanting to shake my hand, get their picture taken with me, to ask me questions that were none of their damn business. I understand what you guys go through a bit more, but as a bodyguard I will be able to put a barrier up and bounce people off... gently of course."

Yoongi chuckled at the image I put in his mind, before leaning back in his chair. "I am determined to be a better person, to be stronger, to be happier, to forgive myself... but never forget." I said before shyly admitting. "I want to do this so I am the best me, I can be for the 7 best guys."

"What if you're already the best in our eyes?" He asked. This caused me to frown, which made him puff out his cheeks in frustration.

'What if I was the best in their eyes?' I thought trying not to get distracted by Yoongi's puffed out cheeks. 'Would I ever actually be good enough in my own eyes for them?' Maybe I should listen and believe in them more; frustrated and confused, I ran my hand through my hair. " Perhaps... but I have no idea how relationships actually work whether they be romantic or not. Hell... if I continue on the path, I am going I don't even know if I will be able to balance it all," I grumbled out before making eye contact with Yoongi. This only caused him to give me his lopsided grin.