Rereading messages from my exes, especially the one I recently have now hurts so much because they always say that they care and will stay with me, but then they leave me and throw me away. I feel so hurt whenever I get left. Everything feels like I'm the one at fault and I believe it too. They always leave me. Always. ALWAYS. ALWAYS.
I JUST WANTED ONE GOOD RELATIONSHIP.
They say I'm too much. They say I can't communicate. They say I can't open up. It's their fault that I can't cus they literally said to my face that they don't give any care about my feelings and thoughts and what I love. I'm so boring. I feel so stupid. It hurts to feel sick about someone you love. Once they say they never wanna talk to you again, trying to get you to feel worse and worse as the week goes by.
It's so hard to cope with it, knowing that they don't care or that they are with someone else because they can't show fucking sympathy for the breakup. I just wanted them to stay. They couldn't do that because I was too much and cus I couldn't talk constantly. Am I really too much? Am I a bar person? I just wanted one relationship. Please. Just. One. I want a good one.
People hate me and I hate people. This world is just awful and they think I don't know that. I grew up too fast and I started to know at a young age. I just wanna be young again. But no one will let me be young again. Enough. I'm not enough. I'm just. A person with a mask, being pushed around and dropped every single time. I just. I'm so cold and tired. I'm gonna..
Hold myself together, and I'll make it. Please believe in me..
Today's song is:
Me and My Husband - Mitski
- J//den
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Vents/Stories
De TodoHeya! So, I'm sorry for delaying on my stories, but I decided to make this so you guys would have something to read and for me to get out my feelings! I haven't been feeling well this week because of a certain someone and I've been damaged ever sinc...
