Love At Gunpoint | Kurodachi

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Published: 2.28.21

  Over the course of a month, Adachi's been getting closer to Kurosawa bit by bit.

Kurosawa was reluctant at first, still worried about dragging Adachi into danger, but after a bit of persistence, Adachi finally got through to him.

From talking occasionally before class starts, to talking at lunch, and then to talking outside of school-- when they're not busy, of course.

All the while Adachi used this as an excuse to observe Kurosawa up close, the person in question was oblivious to it all.

It almost hurt whenever Adachi thought about it, but he'd always push the thoughts aside.

Lately however, it's been getting harder and harder to do so.

The main reason being because of his conflicting feelings.

Not only does he feel guilty for betraying Kurosawa's trust in him, but he's also been getting butterflies in his stomach the more he hangs out with him.

After every heartfelt talk, every personal conversation, every discussion they've had, the feeling has only increased more and more with no sign of stopping. And he knows exactly what it is.

He's not dumb enough not to, plus he's felt it a few times before, but it doesn't make it any easier, especially considering they're both from different sides of a possible war.

It was honestly exhausting trying to sort it out, so he's been trying to ignore it altogether.

It worked for a while too, allowing him to enjoy it just a bit, but now everything's catching up to him all at once, especially now.

School had just finished and since he didn't participate in a club, he went straight home, only to realize that he forgot to grab his key before he left.

Adachi groaned before walking down the steps of his apartment and back down the street as he tried to call Tsuge with no luck. He sighed, He probably turned off his phone again.

Tsuge and Fujisaki both have a spare key in case something like this happened, but it was pointless now that they were both busy.

So much for that.

Adachi sent a text to Tsuge that he hoped he would see and, not knowing what to do now, decided to walk around for a bit. It was surprisingly calming though, so he couldn't complain.

He forgot how peaceful it could be to just walk around the city for a while.

Honestly, he was so content that he didn't even notice that it was dark out until he heard his name being called.

Adachi turned behind him with a small jump to a surprised Kurosawa staring at him.

"What are you doing here so late at night?" Kurosawa gave him a quick once over. "You still have your bag on too, did something happen?"

"Not really. I got locked out of my apartment and took a walk. I was waiting for my friend to text me," He checked his phone and found no new notification. "But I don't think he will."

Adachi put his phone back into his pocket as he sighed.

"I'll probably have to stay at an internet cafe tonight. Thankfully there's no school tomorrow."

He mumbled the last parts, only intending it for himself, but it seems he underestimated Kurosawa's hearing until he said, "Why not stay at my place instead?"

"Eh?"

Adachi's head whipped so fast he swore he could hear it.

"My place is nearby and it's better than staying overnight at a cafe. Besides, I read the newest volume for Ragna Crimson recently and I wanted to hear your thoughts on it."

Adachi really wanted to say no, and he was about to, but then Kurosawa was giving him a hopeful look and he just.. couldn't.

So, with a defeated sigh, Adachi agreed. He was immediately rewarded with that bright and handsome smile of his and suddenly, it didn't seem so bad.

Once they both got to Kurosawa's apartment, Kurosawa gave Adachi a pair of clothes-- to which Adachi wonders why it fits so well-- and let him take a bath before him.

When they were both done, they spent the entire night just talking. It was mostly at random, with things like school, their shared liking towards mangas, and family-- specifically, their parents.

Adachi honestly has no idea how they got to that last point, but it made him feel a mix of things all at once anyways.

Kurosawa, always so observant, seemed to notice the drop in Adachi's mood instantly. "I'm sorry. I didn't realize it was a sore topic."

Adachi shook his head, which he now realized was resting on top of his knees, which were both brought up on the couch with his arms wrapped protectively around them.

"It's fine. I never really told anyone about them, so it makes sense that you wouldn't know."

Adachi let his eyes fall closed as he buried his head into his arms.

At the same time, he felt Kurosawa move from next to him. Not long after, Adachi felt a hesitant hand on his back.

Adachi stopped himself from jumping at the touch and let it rub his back soothingly as he stayed quiet. Kurosawa on the other hand started speaking in a soft voice in hopes to comfort him.

"You don't have to say anything, but know that you're not alone." Adachi peeked out of his arms to look at Kurosawa and found him looking at him with a distant look on his face.

It made him curious.

"What happened to your parents?"

Adachi immediately regretted asking such a rude question, but Kurosawa was already replying by the time he tried to take it back.

"They died a long time ago." He sighed, "Now it's just my sister and I, but we get through it.. together."

Adachi stared at him in [awe].

They've been hanging out for a few months now, but Adachi feels like Kurosawa's been holding things back when it comes to his emotions.

Adachi can't really say anything since he's been hiding even more from Kurosawa, even after trusting his secret with him, but he's still glad to hear something so real coming from Kurosawa.

It was a rare moment for Kurosawa to say something filled with such pain out loud, so it surprised Adachi that he'd do it to make him feel better-- and it did.

But it was almost instantly ruined when Adachi started feeling guilty again.

Adachi felt his body tense up and hid his face between his knees again before repeating a sort of mantra in his head.

I'm not doing anything wrong, I'm just being cautious. Lies.

I'm just making sure he's not a threat. I'm not hurting anyone. Lies.

His mantra would usually help him fight off the growing pain of guilt.

It always helped him push all of his thoughts truths to the back of his mind, but having the [very] subject of his guilt sitting next to him only seemed to make him feel [even] worse.

He almost sighed out loud. I don't want to hurt him..

Suddenly, Adachi found his body relaxing and his eyelids feeling heavy.

He forced his eyes to stay open long enough to realize that Kurosawa was hugging him and calling his name softly.

It felt so foreign and yet so comforting, and in less than a minute, Adachi felt himself falling asleep.

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