Never Forgotten / H.G

seventeen

Songs of the chapter
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Demons - Imagine Dragons

Thinking Out Loud - Ed Sheeran
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ALISONS POV

I'm so done.

I guess no one can actually like me, let alone love me. I thought Hayes liked me, I thought he possibly even loved me but no; my thoughts get in the way of everything.

I hesitantly run back to my house, with tears falling down my cheeks and my hair a mess, I don't care.. I just keep running. Never stopping never.

I unlock the door, then slamming it shut. My first love, all he ever done was hurt me, or brake me with his shallow words and ways. I can't deal with it anymore.

If he doesn't like me, so be it. He doesn't have to, I have Stephen while he can have his "Addison". I swear her name is like mine.

Why am I thinking this right now?! My first love is cheating- wait we're not even dating. What the hell is gotten into me?

One boy; with gorgeous blue eyes, shaggy brown hair and olive tanned skin is basically controlling my life by the looks of it. I'm done. Officially and utterly done.

As I check the time, it's already midnight. What's the point in sleeping now. I won't get to actual sleep until like 1 or 2am. I grab my phone from my purse/wallet and walk to my bedroom.

I open my closet doors, I'm already wearing a tanktop. I decided on either wearing fuzzy pajama bottoms or some fuzzy shorts. I decided with the fuzzy shorts.

I brushed my hair, brushed my teeth, took off my dirty makeup leaving me with a clean; naked face. How I like it. I sigh and check the time, how was I right. 12:35am now.

I basically spent half an hour in here just standing here, starring at myself in the mirror. What doesn't he like about me? I thought I looked good enough for him.

Am I not wearing the right clothes? The right clothing brands? What's the hot new style? What? I'm obviously doing something wrong to make him do that to me.

I turn the bathroom light off, and shut the door. I lock my bedroom door and get under the nice and comfy; most importantly warm bed sheets and went to sleep.

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Once I walked into the room, I was wearing this red dress that my boyfriend picked out for me, He is the sweetest guy ever.

"You look stunning babe" He whispers in my ear, I giggle at him as I look at him. He looks better than I do.

I bite my lip and run my pointer finger across his cheek bones; how I wish I had his cheek bones. So powerful and.. Dare I say hot.

"Thanks, Stephen." I smile, as he smiles back he leans forwards slowly before colliding our lips together. He softly kisses me as I wrap my hands around his neck.

I back away for a second for some air, until I see something awkward.

I wasn't kissing Stephen, I was kissing Hayes

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I wake up, my eyes almost swollen shut from the moist tears that are still in my eyes. Once I rub my eyes, I look down seeing a big wet mark where my face was (my eyes)

I even cry in my sleep because of him? Great. Just fricking great. I sigh and decide to get out of bed.

I walked to my closet and picked out the white laced shirt Stephen picked out for me yesterday. I matched it with some black leggings and my pastel yellow vans.

I brushed threw my very knotted brown locks of my hair, which seem to sadly be falling out. Which grosses me out because I read stress can cause hair stuff.

Nasty.

I then decided on just applying some cream blush, my mint eos lip balm and a little mascara. No eyeliner, eyeshadow or lip colour because I'm not going anywhere today.

Maybe I should go out and get my mind off of what happened last night? I sigh. I tied up my pastel coloured vans and made my way downstairs.

I walked to the living room and saw the tv was on. Maybe I left it on last night whatever. I walked towards the kitchen and opened the fridge. Maybe I should have a tea?

I grabbed my favourite mug, it says '1989'on it. My aunt bought me it a while ago so why not use it? I filled the water up in my keurig machine and put a tea bag in my mug.

I put the mug down and set the water for 6. I pressed hot water and let it go.

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It's almost 4:30pm right now, I've done nothing all day but watch netflix and eating junk food because let's face it, I'm a loner when it comes to Valentines day.

My phone starts to ding, I grab it as I pause my movie. I was currently watching Mean Girls because that snow is my favourite.

*hey.. Happy valentines day! (S)

*aw thanks xx u to! (A)

*u doing anything today? (S)

*nope;p (A)

And our conversation just continued like any two bestfriends would.

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HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

Ily all.

I can't update for a while bc I updated last night + rn I'm sore bc my hands hurt idk

I'm single today

SHOCKER (not rlly)

I'm watching 13 ghosts rn and my fave is the jackal lol he kills prostitutes

Have any of ya seen it? Idk comment if you have and who ur fav ghost it xD

Updating at 750! :3

xx
Lexie