Never Forgotten / H.G

twenty

+ATTENTION: THIS CHAPTER HAS SOME MINOR SUICIDAL WORDS&THOUGHTS.+ eNJOY >:)

Songs of the chapter:
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Earned It - The Weekend

Take Me To Church - Hoizer
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ALISONS POV

I push him off.

"What the hell?!" I wipe my lips.

"Alison please I'm so sorry!" He cries more, tears running down his face.

"What about the other girl?" I scoff at him. I glance down at him, I see little marks on both of his wrists. I gasp

"She's done- I just really missed you Marie" He cries, and chuckles at the same time.

I grab his right wrist, seeing a bunch of cut and scars; some fresh to. I bring my hand up to my mouth to stop me from sobbing.

"H-Hayes?" I whisper, he looks down and grabs his wrist.

"I- whatever." He shoo's me away.

"You can't just kiss me and expect me to take you were cutting so easily!" I shout. Maybe a little to loud but I doubt anyone heard.

"Alison! Keep your mouth shut!" He blurbs before sitting on his bed with his face in his hands.

"Hayes, we're almost 20.." I whisper, he walks to his dresser and grabs something out. I notice something that looks metal.

"Hayes!" I squeal, I grab it off of him and throw it out the window.

"What did you do!" He screams, I back up to the door in a little fear. This isn't the bubbly Hayes..

"I'm being nice!" I whisper, tears swelling in my eyes finally.

"Why did you leave?" He says more tears escaping his blue eyes.. Which look way duller and lost its perfect sparkle.

"Uhm- One of your friends ex-boyfriends " I say, like no big deal when it actually is.

"Who?"

"Stephen" I squeal.

"Who??" He says in confusion

"He said you broke him and one of your friends up?" I say with more confusion.

"I didn't brake anyone up.. Except Molly and Jake from 2 years ago" He chuckles. Was he lying?

"So.. Are you okay?" I say, changing the topic.

"Uh- sorry about that" He says, scratching the back of his neck.

"For what? Yelling or kissing Me" I joke, he sighs.

"Yelling at you" He says a little softly; he doesn't regret kissing me?

"You don't regret.. Kissing me?"

"Not really"

"Oh" I say, twirling my hair.

"Are you okay?" So I can ask one last time before leaving.

"I'm fine, thanks" He smiles. I smile to and kiss his cheek.

"Goodbye, Hayes." I smile and walk away.

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"And yeah" I say, to the computer screen. He sighs and looks down.

"I'm sorry, Ali"

"You lied?" I choked out.

"N-Not really!" He justifies, his voice shaking.

"Uh huh" I Say,

"I'd never completely lie?" He questions and smiles somewhat at me.

"Whatever" I joke. He basically apologized to me and that's all that matters to me.

Wait..

He DID apologize to me..

Right?

Yeah I guess.

"It's already 2.. I'm getting tired.. Night Stephen" I wave off and end the Skype call, I sigh and get my phone.

I still have his number.. From all of those annoying texts he would send me, day and night, every second. Now I know he cuts..

The worst feeling ever..

He cuts because of me.

A tear sheds from my eye as I quickly wipe it away and walk to my bathroom and take all of my make-up off and brush my teeth, wash my face all of that.

Then I change into some shorts and a t-shirt with a baby duckling on it as I sat on my bed and scrolled on my laptop threw tumblr.

I finally get off of tumblr a few hours later and see the time is 4am, what's the point of sleeping. I can't. Hayes is currently depressed and I can't help but feel shitty and stupid.

I go on my phone and go on Twitter.

@AlisonMarie: I'm so sorry </3

I sigh and go back on my laptop.

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I rub my eyes, I've been up all night and there's no chance I'm going to sleep. Might as well stay up.

Yeah, it's 6am. I've been on my Laptop and on my phone basically 24/7.

I can't get my mind off of what happened the other day, I burr in coldness as the winter air makes it way into my apartment.

I walk up to my closet and open the door and instantly grab a wool sweater and some jeans. I pull out my white converse and I braid my hair.

I turn on the bathroom light and grab my make-up, I grab my eyeliner and do a little baby wing, applying some red lipstick and some light cream blush.

I take out my phone and take a quick selfie, I haven't for a while and go on magic hour which is one of the apps I use. Wait, why am I saying this? I don't know.

I'm young and dumb.

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AGHHH HALISON MOMENT

SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED FOR LIKE 2 WEEKS IM SO TERRIBLY SRRY

ILL UPDATE ON WEDNESDAY I PROMISE

((Bc of March break))

I get a week off lmfao

See y'all on Wednesday !!

Or somewhat idfk

xx
Lexie