The death of her

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Heather's POV

School is starting soon I think in a week and l have been studying for this semester and I'm doing great. I want to be number one in everything just like how l was. Currently I'm looking through my computer to see how beautiful and the school's pass rate. The pass rate is good so is the school. My sperm donor is so rich so it's no biggie.

Currently I'm in my room eating salad. After that day me and Ben haven't really talked a lot it seems like he's ignoring me but I don't mind. I know maybe my so called father and my roommates in my mother's womb talked to him about talking to me.

The sad part is that he really wanted to be a brother. I don't know what I thought, my mind and heart. I should learn to move on. Jade really tries and it's hard for me really to replace my mother but she gets it.

My twin is just a bitter bitch that had something craw up into  his butt and died there. Trust me, when he looks at me he's always ready to kill. Then Filex that guy he doesn't talk to me at all nor does my stepbrothers.

I always see them on Sundays watching soccer  and laughing like there is no tomorrow. They act like I'm not even there and l get it I'm so unwanted. No I'm not loves and just ignore. In my life l always did the pretend game where I had to pretend I had no brothers and father and I was an orphan.

I had to accept these things mentally so that I can accept it physically. I put my walls higher than they already were before. Only my friends can get in. I had to accept everything and the sudden changes. I always had to accept. Once I turn eighteen I'm out of this place. I'm saving up my money that I get every month. I'm only left with six months. I want to leave this place so that I can start afresh alone.

I will keep contact with my boyfriend and friends only. It's just the way life goes on. I pretend that everything is okay but it's not okay but it helps a lot. My walls a so high that it's hard to get though them and also they are so thick.

When I got raped that day I understood one thing and that was I lost my family. Infact I had lost everything that day. He was my first kill and it was fun. That is when I met Sean, the person who helped me live and is the reason I'm alive today.

Isabella didn't know it happened but I had a breakdown infront of then and then we killed. I join a gang abc so far I'm one of the best trackers in the world.

I accept everything that happens bad or good. I didn't realize I was crying until now. I chose to watch some television with some vodka. I'm alcohol addicted. I do heroine but not all the time. I do a small amount when I'm stressed it helps. I'm also a street fighter, street racer, assassin and a drug dealer.

That's how the underground world works. Right now I'm watching wrong turn four. It makes me laugh how they kill those stupid humans. They kill them one by one. Some girls might be afraid but for me it's so funny.

See the real me is so broken and emotionless of anything. I react to people who I'm close to. I watched the movie till it got finished and I slept in the afternoon. I woke up around six and started reading. After two hours of reading I got downstairs because food was ready.

I ate in silence." school is starting in five days I think. So are you boys ready" my dad said. " yea we are" the boys said it one time. No they aren't.

" good I hope you stop with your player ways" Jade said with a smile. I ignored them. I always do that because I'm never asked by them questions except by Jade. " honey honey" Jade said. I looked at her and smiled. " I  have been calling you for a long time now. I said are you ready for a normal high school" she said. " yea I'm always ready. To tell you the truth I'm so excited, plus tomorrow I will be going out with my friends for shopping and other stuff " I said with a true smile for the first time. She seemed taken back because I never tell her about myself.