Tales of the World

Reality Of Dreams

    People surround me but I'm in my own little world. A world that consists of standing in the rain, writing in a café, beauty, and wonder, but... also fear, fear of being alone and ignored. You ask me what superpower I want but what you don't know is that I've already got one, invisibility. And as soon as I realise I'm in a dream and not reality, the loneliness crawls its way into me and I'm terrified and in shock. All those hours of believing the world is mine for it all to just come crashing down leaving me frozen in a state of fear from what is real and what is not. People don't get it, they never will. All I have to do is decide whether or not I stay in a dream or face reality but I just can't. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to lash out at you like that. It's just so frustrating not knowing and people not helping you. I'm only a kid, this wasn't meant to happen. I was meant to be happy not stressed, energetic not exhausted, free not trapped. I'm torturing myself and I can't stop, I don't know how to stop, but I don't want to stop. I'm scared that I'm going to be invisible, alone. I'm scared people won't believe me. I like being happy but there are bad memories of being happy and I don't want that. I just want to be free, like in the dreams I have. Free of worries, free of all the pressure, just free... That's why dreaming is an escape for me, an escape from everything. But it's dangerous, really dangerous as it's hard to get back to reality once you've been away for too long. I don't know what's worse, thinking everyone is watching you or realising that no one is watching you.

I just want a hug...