M A S K
You know those books 'a series of unfortunate events' that you read as a child, well I've always felt a connection to them because that's what my life has been - a series of unfortunate events.
Wearing a mask is easy, but when that mask beg...
The day had gone pretty quickly; Leo went to school early for a science project, my shift at the parlour was relaxing and now I only had a few minutes before Lexi was coming round so we could get ready together.
Just as I start rifling through my wardrobe I hear the door open.
"Hey!" Lexi shouts.
"Hey, Lex," I say smiling at her as she closes the front door.
We both get changed into our clubbing outfits, chatting continuously as we do.
Lexi looks gorgeous in a blush pink ruched mini dress. She wears long sparkly earrings and her hair waved.
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I on the other hand wear a pair of black leather trousers and a backless top so I can show off the tattoo on my back. I tie my hair up in a loose bun, pulling pieces out to frame my face.
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For accessories I keep on the same watch as I always do as well as a small gold ring. Lastly I pull on my docs and grab my bag.
About an hour later and we're both heading out the door, me locking it behind us and walking down the stairs. Leo had gone straight to his friend's after school so I hadn't seen him but I made sure he texted me when he arrived.
The air was cold and I instinctively wrapped my arms around my body.
On the way to the club, Lex and I chat like we always do but I could tell she was leading a majority of the conversations in an attempt to keep me distracted so I didn't worry. I know it sounds crazy to have so much panic over doing something so simple like going to a club with a friend, but it's all the connotations that come along side it that make my mind overflow. For me, spending a night out having fun means I'm leaving Leo for selfish reasons and neglecting the promise I made to myself to look after him and always keep him safe. Not only am I choosing myself over him but I'm putting myself in a position to possibly fall back into old patterns, I'm surrounding myself with memories and triggers of my old life.
