Bluebird~l.s.- A's Ending

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Right as Liam turned the camera off I got up to leave. I heard Louis calling after me to see if I was okay. I just kept walking I wanted to get as far away as possible so I could be alone. I ran back to the bathroom and once again fumbled with the lock. I felt my back sliding down the wall but I didn't really know what was happening. I just felt the hot tears pour down my cheeks.
The tightness in my chest from me breathing only in little hiccups was a pain I couldn't imagine. I wasn't even completely sure why I was breaking down. Maybe it was the fact of knowing I was so horribly messed up for liking Louis the way I did. Maybe it was just the fact that I like him so much he was oblivious to this fact. I wasn't sure but I couldn't focus on the why right now. All I could focus on was making sure I kept breathing in the little hiccups.
I still heard the voice screaming "Worthless" "Niave" "How could you like a boy like that?" I tried to shut it out, tried to tell myself it was okay but the voice only got louder. "WORTHLESS!"
"NIAVE!"
"S-stop p-ple-please, STOP!" I finally said aloud in a shaky tone. "WORTHLESS" it screamed louder. I curled into a ball on the ground letting the voice take over. "You ever think he would actually like you?" The voice mocked. I just sobbed more letting out shaky breaths when the voice staryed drowning.out from lack of oxygen.
Maybe thats how I could get rid of the voice just making it all stop hurting....thats when I heard yelling outside the door.
"Harry, c'mon let me in!" It was Zayn's calm tone. I ignored his calls out until they finally went away. I once again sat in my ball letting the voice take over screaming horrible things repeatedly. Thats when a different voice came calling through the door.
"Harry, please let me in, I need to know your okay," this time it was a voice I recognised well. A voice I spent hours fonding over.
It was Louis.
Suddenly the dark didn't seem so heavy. Suddenly the voice didn't seem so loud. I slowly got up from my little ball on the ground and unlocked the door and fell to the ground again immediately after. The door swung open and I saw him. His beautiful blue eyes and messy brown hair. He was wearing baggy grey sweatpants and a big white t-shirt. He looked so pretty even in his PJ's. He looked down at my tear stained face and shirt his eyes full of hurt.
"I-Im S-so-sor-" I tried to choke.out but he fell to the ground beside me and took me in his arms. A place I had always longed to be and all of a sudden it felt like everything might be okay here in his arms.
"Its okay Haz, you don't need to be sorry," I heard come in a faint whisper from him but I heard. I could hear the voices faint whisper saying "Its just a friend thing, he wants to know yor okay thats all" but this time it didn't hurt so bad. The tears still poured  down staining Louis' shirt this time. I felt bad but in his arms it seemed okay.
We sat like this until my breathing became even and it was like a mutual understanding. We stood up and made it back to our bunks. Niall, Liam, and Zayn looked at me with concern but I was tired to explain it all. I just got under my think blanket and let the sleep take over.

A/n Omg....I- ......SADNESS
-A & K 🐦
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