I think, there would be nothing more hurting than to know that someone broke your trust.
In a relationship, kahit gaano pa 'yan katibay, basta once na nagkaroon ng hole, marereformat lahat. Kahit ano pang paliwanag ng partner mo, you'll never get his point because you are mad.
It's been a month.
December 25. Pasko. Pasko ng nagdadalamhating puso. Who would've known that on that day, you'll see your boyfriend in a restaurant with another girl? Actually, we were celebrating our first anniversary and our first Christmas together that time.
December 25. Pasko. Pasko ng nagdadalamhating puso. Who would've known that on that day, we broke up. Hinabol niya pa ako sa kalsada nung gabing 'yon. He even knelt down. He pleaded. Pero, ayoko talagang maniwala sa kanya.
If you were in my place that time, would you believe your boyfriend that they were not dating? Kahit pa sabihing friendly date lang 'yon. It's still a fvcking date. Nung time na 'yon, dapat girlfriend niya 'yung kasama niya e.
Bakit iba?
It's been a month.
Bukas na ang 2nd month ng paghihinagpis ko. I admit it. I still can't get over him. Prom na bukas e. Siya pa naman sana 'yung first and last dance ko.
Pero ngayon, I'm not expecting him to offer me a dance. Tapos na kami. Hindi na kami pwedeng maging friends or kahit, magkadikit man lang. 'Cause, surely, it will hurt me more.
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February 25. 7:03 pm. Manila Grand Opera Hotel.
Nasa lobby pa lang kami ng hotel, I can already feel the pressure. He has not changed even a bit. He's still the best man for me. His eyes, his shining smile, his broad shoulders. Walang pinagbago.
I just hope that I am still the one in his heart. 'Cause, in mine, nothing changed. He's still occupying the biggest part.
The students came now at the main venue.
"Wow. It's so beautiful here."
"Yay! I'm so excited to have my first dance this year."
"But, sissy, last dance would be the most perfect."
I can hear my classmates talk about the upcoming events. Hindi na ako excited. Wala nang dapat akong ika-excite pa. Wala na siya. Wala nang makakapagpaganda ng gabing ito.
8:23 pm.
My first dance?
Wala. Wala akong tinanggap ni isa. There would be no other man that can dance with me except for him. Siya lang ang tatanggapin ko.
In every minutes passing, I always check my make up if it's already messing out. I can't help myself crying everytime I see him dancing with other girls.
Luke, I'm your past.
But, you're still my present.
10:34 pm.
Ilang minuto na lang magtatapos na ang prom. It's my last year of joining prom nights. It's actually the saddest. The first time I joined it when I was still in junior year, it was really awesome. He's my first and he's my last. Ngayon, hindi ko siya first. At hindi ko rin siya..
"Veronica, can you give me just this one last dance? Please?"
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Whuuuuuut?
He's asking me to be his last dance?
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"Muling ibalik ang tamis ng pag-ibig," kanta ng mga tao sa paligid namin.
