Life (on-going)

Independent

I am here now, in the Philippines! And i'm going to live independently. Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako o malulungkot na ako lang mag isang mamumuhay dito on my own. I like the feeling that magagawa ko lahat ng gusto ko without my family by my side, but at the same time i'm sad kasi paano pag hindi ko pala kayanin na wala sila sa tabi ko? But i think this consequence can teach me a lot of lessons, hopefully.

Nagtaxi ako papuntang condo since nandoon yung sasakyan ko. I don't know where to start, wala akong ka close dito aside from my relatives who is living from the province. This scenario is very far from what i've been experiencing in california. Napakalayo ng sitwasyon, napahinga nalang ako ng malalim bago bumaba sa taxi.

I went to my condo unit and inayos ko lahat ng gamit ko at mga pasalubong, hindi ko alam paano ko to ibibigay sa mga pinsan at tita ko kasi malayo sila sa akin, how i hope maka punta ako sa province kasi next month pa naman yung pasukan. This is so frustrating, anong gagawin ko ngayon? Nasanay akong pinalilibutan ng mga kaibigan, gala at inom. Pero ngayon, tamang higa na lang sa kama ko at mag isip kung ano bang nangyayari sa buhay ko.

This is where my life will start. Pinikit ko ang mga mata ko at natulog ng mahimbing.

*Kinabukasan

Nagising ako ng 10:43 am. Tinignan ko yung phone ko at nakita ko yung mga message ng kaibigan ko from cali and from my kuya, mom and dad. They're just asking if kamusta yung byahe ko at yung place na tinutuloyan ko.

Nakakapagod kahit kakagising ko palang, saan kaya ako kakain? Bumangon ako at naligo, sa mall na lang ako kakain.

Wide leg pants tsaka croptop na white na sleeveless yung sinuot ko with small flowers na design then i am wearing my 2 inches nude heels and a handbag, i decided to just curl my hair put some gold necklace and a small earings. Hindi na ako nag make up kasi nakakatamad, pero napaisip ako na hindi naman ako tamad mag make up everyday sa Cali ah pero no. Ph is different at ang init dito para mag wear ng full glam make up. Nag concealer na lang ako tsaka nag lipstick then nag mascara at liquid eyeliner tsaka hinanap ko yung susi ng sasakyan ko sa cabinet tsaka umalis.

*MALL OF ASIA

I arrived here at 12:35 pm.

Naghanap ako ng makakainan, at ng my mahanap na ako i decided to order vegetable salad and quesadilla atsaka strawberry milk shake. Wala ako sa mood kumain ng rice. Kasi hindi ko naman yun nakasanayan sa Cali, hay nako isang araw pa lang ako dito sa pinas pero namimiss ko na yung California, inubos ko na lang yung pagkain ko at ng matapos na ako kumain, naglibot ako sa mall para makapag shopping ng mga kailangan ko sa condo at mag grocery na din.

Andami kong store na pinasukan pero konti lng yung mga nagustohan ko na clothes, bumili ako ng dalawang bag tsaka apat na heels since i am really comfortable in wearing heelsand btw my height is 5'5. Bumili na din ako ng sleepers for outdoor and for my condo and cr. Gusto ko din sanang bumili pa ng mga damit kaso napapagod na ako, napag pasyahan kong pumunta na lang sa home appliances para tumingin ng mga gamit and designs for my condo. After ilang ikot at hanap, binili ko na yung air fryer, vanity table at yung mga cute na frames. Pagkatapos nagbayad na ako at pumunta ng grocery.

I am really a fan of eating junk foods. I know it's unhealthy but napaka satisfying, bumili ako ng mga chichirya tsaka chocolates, then biscuits, milks, alcoholic drinks, pasta and canned goods. Atsaka nag bayad na ako, nako naman napakarami kong dala. It's really my first time doing this nako. Gusto ko pa sanang maglibot to find something for my dinner pero masyado na akong maraming dala para bumili pa, ganito pala talaga pag mag isa. Mag da drive thru nalang ako mamaya.

Nilagay ko na lahat ng pinamili ko sa sasakyan at dadaan nalang ako ng SB to take out some iced coffee and mag da drive thru nalang ako ng jollibee kasi na miss ko din to. It's already 5:20 pm at ang traffic nako naman, need ko talaga yung kape na to sa traffic. After ko mag drive thru, naisip ko need ko pa lang dumaan sa botika kasi kailangan ko mag stock ng mga gamot sabi ni mommy dahil ako lng dw mag isa sa condo.

Pagkatapos kong mka bili ng gamot, umuwi na ako at yung traffic hindi basta basta, i decided na sa sasakyan nalang kainin yung dinner ko kasi ang boring walang magawa sa traffic.

*i arrived at my condo at exactly 8:55 in the evening!

Ang lala ng traffic sis sobra! Nakakapagod. Kapag ganito pala hindi nalang muna ako lalabas at gagala. Maybe you are wondering bakit alam ko yung mga lugar sa manila, dito ako lumaki pero when i turned 16 years old lumipat kami sa california ng fam ko and now i'm already 23 years old.

I carried everything in my hand pero, hindi ko kinaya, sa left side is yung groceries, sa right side is yung clothes, heels at sleepers. Babalikan ko na lang yung pinamili ko sa home appliances.

After i arranged all that i bought, nag shower ako at nag social media to upload my photos kanina sa kinainan ko then andaming nag like at comment, si kuya sabi nya "wow vegetable salad, healthy living huh" nang aasar na naman to, then si mom saying "that's good, always choose to eat healthy" lol. Yes mom i will coz i bought a lot of junk foods hahahahaha!

Then my dad, he also commented "why don't you just cook instead of dining out?" argh bat ganyan pamilya ko, like hello dad kaka grocery ko lang ng lulutuin. I just reacted at their comments, my friends from cali also commented they miss eating with me, the miss the foods that i cooked for them. Awwww i really felt sad....

I am enjoying reacting at the comments when suddenly i received a message from my messenger saying
"Hello solenn! How are you? It's nice that you're here in PH right now, wanna have some coffee soon?"

It's Gavin Rhys Hudson. My classmate way back in elementary. I am really close with my classmates during elementary days, but when i went to Cali, we've never communicate for 11 years, although they're liking my social media post always, pero hindi kami nag cha chat, i replied to him "Hey rhys! Yes, im going to study my last year in college here! Sure, anytime!"

Then he replied "I'm glad you still remember me Cali girl hahaha"

"Lol of course I do remember you! Why would i forgot someone who's smart as you?" i said. He is really smart, athletic, talented and funny as well when we are in elementary, hindi ko alam ngayo kung nagbago sya or what.

Then he replied "Hahaha, and I know your also smart enough not to forgot me, it's been 11 years Solee!"

Hahaha and he still calls me in that name, Solee.

Nag usap kami sa chat until 10:40 pm at hindi na ako nakapag fix ng mga gamit ko nako naman oh. We ended chatting kasi pupunta daw sya sa bar nila to manage their business, atsaka i  also have things to do.

I just keep on reading comments of ky friends sa pinost ko at my nag chat nanaman sa akin saying, "Solenn!!! Where are you staying right now? If you want to gala sometimes just call me ehe!"

It's Lily Paisley Rodriguez. Anak ng bestfriend ng mommy ko. We are friends actually sa social media at nag chachat din kami sometimes to rant bout our parents attitude lol hahahaha.

"Lily! I forgot to tell you about this i'm sorry, kahapon lang ako nakarating dito masyadong busy sa pag aasikaso ng mga needs ko kaya ngayon lng ako nakapag time sa social media, didn't my mom told you about this?"

"It's okay! Let's chika more if we see each other. Actually i didn't know your going here in the PH, i just saw your post, baka siguro ayaw ni mom and tita na magsama tayong dalawa cos it's gonna be a trouble sis you know! Hahahahahaha. I'll help you with your needs sa condo. Just tell me anytime sole!" Lily.

"Yay thanks lily! Let's have lunch tomorrow, bring me somewhere na alam mong masarap tambayan and the food is good!"

"Sure sole! See you tomorrow, i gotchu and i'm so excited to meet you finally" Lily

"Thanks lil and see you, gotta go to sleep, goodnight!"

"Goodnight sole, see you! Get some rest cos tomorrow is gonna be fun!"

I charged my phone and decided to fix my things. Ano kayang sinasabi ni lily na tomorrow is gonna be fun? I hope merong alak hahahaha.

At natulog na ako.