My famous ex

Part 1

Belle recap over past year:
Last year was probably the best year of my life but I fucked it up.
I was happy on tour had amazing friends who were my family.
I had the sway boys my brothers
I had my tiktok girls
I had my sisters (the Kardashians)
I had my modelling career
My music
My acting
The reality show
And best of all
I had Jaden, I loved him so much to the point where I scared myself away I was scared to commit so I ran away left it all behind and at first it felt like the right thing to do
Leave never come back
But after 3 weeks after seeing them message me I realised how much damage I had down and it hit me I fucked up
So I went into this mental state of depression
I did drugs I got drunk all the time
I refused to see anyone
I had to cut of Colson cause i new he would be able to bring me back to reality and I didn't want to I liked being drunk and high it made me numb from the pain I was going through.
So I cut him off cause I knew he would drag me back to reality to being sober.
I blocked Jaden cause I knew he could do the same.
I stopped posting on social media
I stopped filming on the reality show
And all my sisters were very worried about me
One day I had enough of my life and I tired to kill myself I text colson to tell him I'm sorry and to tell everyone I loved them and then I took the pills
Then I woke up in a hospital a week later they put me in a coma so I would survive and colson was sat next to me
Back to the day in hospital:
I woke up and realised I was still alive
I whispered to myself
Belle: fuck sake I'm still here

That when I realised someone else is in the room I looked over and it was colson
Belle thoughts:
Fuck sake I've avoided him for so long and now he's here ughhh

Colson: look I know u think I'm mad I'm not I'm disappointed that u shut me out and didn't let me help you

Belle: you don't get it do u. I didn't want to be here. I didn't want help. I was so much better High and drunk I was numb to all pain

Colson:I know belle I've been there but trust me it's not good for you

Belle:I don't want what's good for me Colson, I wanted to die I didn't want help why did u save me

Colson: I saved u because I love you and there are so many other people who do to. Your like my little sister and I'm not gunna let u throw your life away I'm gunna help whether u like it or not

Belle:ugh ur literally impossible to talk to you don't understand Colson I fucked my life up 4 months ago when I left and ran away from the love of my life and all of my friends who I called family because I was scared

Colson:look I know u messed up but things will get better and I'm not gunna argue with u  about it because ur going to a mental hospital rehab and there gunna help ur mental health and ur addiction to pills and weed and alcohol

I ignored him I knew there was nothing that was gunna help me out of this one he was fixed on getting me better not that I believed he would be able to any more I far gone past help

Back to present day:

In the end he got me to go and it helped and I got better I was there for 7 months and I still smoke weed and drink alcohol I have just learnt to control it
My mental health it better and I still have
Little things like adhd and anxiety and anger issues but there getting better
The the last two months since I've been out I've just been get back to normality I've been filming with my sister on the reality show since I've been off everything for 10 months
I've been writing songs ready to record and I've got back in contact my manager Travis I look up to as my father he was so worried about me but couldn't find me I flew out to New York  and blocked them all but I'm back in la living with kourtney and Travis and both there kids now.
Me and Landon and Alabama are so close in closer to Landon cause we both make music .
Me my niece and nephew some of the don't even remember me cause they were to young yes that yes that may seem said but in some sense I'm happy they don't remember me because now they get to see the sober nice me