Sky Lanterns

In my dreams

Seeing balls of light shining in the vast night sky, I wonder how it would feel like to float with them. The beautiful lanterns floating in the night sky, I can't help but wish to be flying just to reach that high up in the sky. To float along with those beautiful balls of light.

Feeling big warm hands touch my fingertips, as I sat in the grassy meadow watching the sky lanterns float freely. I felt a soft hand creep around mine and lace my fingers with its own. I felt as if my heart was going to burst. The loud thumping noise of my heart was all that I could hear. I don't know what to do. To think, right now, I'm sitting here with my crush. I could hear him inching closer, his movement being emphasized by the crunching sound of grass. I could feel a cool breeze against my face, hoping that would tone down the heat that was currently rising up in my face. Maybe my face is actually burning up like as red as a... as a strawberry...? Anyway, I hope he doesn't notice it. That'd ruin everything. I don't want him to know how I feel. I hope he doesn't--wait no, scratch that, NEVER finds out. Aasjdjlgudklsdjska...!!! Why is this so hard?

"Rika," he said. Askjddlkdfjdkslafdskflds... he's totally making me get distracted from the wonderful sight in front of us. He's making quite the distraction already just by sitting there next to me doing nothing and now he has to talk to me too, great just great, notice how I'm being sarcastic.

"Ah...Y-yeah?" I stuttered out, even though I tired so hard not to stutter, while not looking into his eyes. I want to avoid them as much as possible. If get to have eye-contact with him, I think my heart is really going to literally(Yeah, nasty heart pieces splattered everywhere, lol) burst! He grasped my hand in his, which made me turn to him in shock. I tried to mask my shock as much as I could.

"Rika... I..." He started. Oh my gosh. Is this it? Is he finally going to say it? Please don't say it. Maybe he'll return my feelings, or maybe he won't. But either way, I think I'll die.

"I--" Before he could finish his sentence the irritating sound of my alarm started to resound in my ears. Blinking a few times to wipe away the soreness my eyes were feeling then I reached for my bedside table to look for my phone. Blindly feeling the surface of the table I finally got my phone after a few tries. Before turning the horrid alarm off, I looked at the time first. 5:30am wake up! boop! wake up! It read on the notification. If I wasn't so slow in the mornngs, I wouldn't have to wake up this early for a 7:30am class. That's right, I take two hours just to finish doing my morning practice. It takes me a few minutes to completely wake up then a few more minutes to pick what clothes I'll wear today. Then so on and so on. I wouldn't really even take that long if I didn't have to eat breakfast. Gosh. If only I didn't have classes from 7:30am until noon! I wouldn't even bother much about eating. But since I need the energy, I have to. Plus, I'm also really slim, I need to put on more weight so I won't get too thin after all my P.E sessions are done. Last semester I gained weight but got thinner. How is that possible? Well, the fat I had turned into muscle. Then because of my fat turning into muscle I got heavier, since muscles are heavier than fat.

Anyway, I guess this is another day of me going through the day without seeing him, again. If only we didn't have different courses then this wouldn't be even a problem. But no, I just had to pick this course instead of the course he's taking. My uncle actually wanted me to get the course my crush is taking now, which is management. But I took marketing communication instead. I said I wanted that because I wanted to still be able to express my love for art. And I love communicating with people and being able to sell things with my words and advertisements. But really, I'm happy I took this course. I don't really want to have management as my course, they say it's harder than mine, more units and much more expesive to boot!

Aaah, I guess I'll just have to put up with this and get it over with. But I have to do my best! So he can notice me! Also, for me to be a bit above the rest. I know it's just wishful thinking, but hey. You gotta do your best right? Even though we're already close, atleast he thinks we're close, I still want to talk to him more, see him more often and play games or watch adventure time with him and his buddies. He even said he'll introduce me to them! I feel so happy. But I guess this is just his appreciation of me introducing him to my friends.

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Time starts to tick by slowly as we begin the first lecture class we have for today. Ah, I really want to get out of here and search for him around the campus. But I can't do that! I don't even know his schedule damnit. After the first class, we went to our second class. I was in a block section, so technically, I'd see most of them in all of my classes. When we finally settled in the room, when I looked through the glass in the door, I saw him. I saw him! OH MY. I started to investigate. I looked at the posture, the way the guy moved, the height and the clothes(Yes, clothes. He only has 5 sets of clothes enough for 5-days of school.) Damnit. Turn around! Turn around! When he finally turned around, I saw the face. OH MY! It is him! Wait. What's wrong with his hair? It looks like a kpop hairstyle! Oh... but, it doesn't suit him. Hahahahahaha! He looks so funny! I wanna go outside and talk to him. But wait, he's with friends, and... he looks lik he's having fun. I better not meddle with them then.

After that one moment of me catching sight of him almost immediately as the day started. And this is the first time ever of me catching sight of him while I'm in a classroom! OH MY, indeed.

As the day finally came to an end, I went home and laid down my bed. Today was a bit chill than I expected it to be. But, like heck! I already have 4 assignments due! Even if today's the first day of class.

After finishing my drawing, my phone started to vibrate. 1 message it read on the locked screen. After unlocking it, I immediately went to check the message. Ah! It's from him! OH MY. What could it possibly be? I hope it's not his usual line of "hey girl:)" or "Rikaaaa! :)". But then that's fine too. I'm happy he texts me. He rarely does anyway.

"I didnt see you today :(" It read on the text.

What. WHAT. Trying to calm myself down I tried to listen to some music. The beat was so inspiring that I decided to draw something on my sketchpad. I drew a girl holding up a single paper lantern, about to let it go. Let it float freely in the vast night sky. As more paper lanters float in the far distance. Losing track of time, I saw that it had already passed about 50 minutes. I think I should reply now.

"Haha! I didnt see you eitherrr :P I think we have conflicting scheds? Or mine's just much more busier than yours, haha! :V But then I'd be free from 12pm onwards tomorrow! So cool right? :))" After tapping send on the screen, I immediately got myself something to drink right after. I'm so nervous! Waaaaaaaaaah!! What to do. What if I'm over explaining things in text? Is it too overbearing? Wait. I'm like this with my other friends too. So, all's well. But what if his friends see it and immediately assume that I like him?? Oh no! I don't want that! But then if he asks, I'll just say that this is my regular treatment with all of my other friends! Yeah, that's it!

After a couple of minutes, he replied. "Haha. But I dont know my sched yet :( I'll try seeing you tomorrow if I can :)"

OH MY.

That night, I couldn't really think of anything else besides the fact that he just told me that he'll try to see me tomorrow. The excitement I'm feeling won't wear off. I bet this'll go on till tomorrow. Ahh, heart! stop pounding already!