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Deku(POV): I left the common area very upset. If it wasn't for Noah I would've killed him. I got mad and punched the wall very hard, causing my hand to bleed. "D-Daddy?" I heard and I turned around to see both Haru and Hiro crying. "Kids I........" Was I was able to say until Noah came. He looked at my arms and started to tear up. "I-Izu..... why?" He asked, but I didn't know what to say. "I-I" was I was able to say before he left. "I need some time to think" He said and he left"N-Noah?" I said and the kids left as well. I sat on the bed and started crying. 'Its all my fault' I kept saying. I went to the bathroom and I bandaged my hand and I decided to cut. I grabbed a razor and began to make lines on my arms. I then bandaged them then grabbed a hoodie. I was still crying as I wiped my tears. I looked around and I remembered I had my depression notebook for when Bakugou would bully me. 'Maybe I should write in it..... but I promised I would stop......' I decided to get the book and I started to write in it.
January 18th 2020
I just messed up. Now Noah and the kids hate me and Todoroki is pushing me to my limits. I didn't want to hurt him..... but what he said about Noah made me upset. Was Bakugou right? Am I really that useless? Maybe I am. I should've done what he said a long time ago...... take a swan dive off the roof. No one would care. I should...... but I should wait...... for now just keep cutting. It helps me with my problems. Welp..... I guess I should go to my favorite place. I just want everything to end....
I decided to grab my drink and go on my motorcycle and ride to my favorite place when I'm said. I walked out and I grabbed my keys. I can tell I was getting stares from the class... but I didn't care. I got on my motorcycle and rode to my favorite place.
I walked to the edge and I sat down, putting my feet in the water. 'I hate myself' I kept saying as I tears started rolling off of my face. I didn't bothered to even wipe my tears as they rolled down my cheek and as I pulled out my phone and decided to listen to music. I smiled a bit as I played in the water with my feet. I watched as the sun set and I smiled. 'I..... hate...... me' I said as more tears fell down and I was smiling. I put my head down and closed my eyes. I woke up to see it was pitch black. I looked at the time to see it was 3 in the morning. 'I must've slept over' I said as I got up and rode back to U.A. I parked my motorcycle and I walked in. "Where have you been?" Shota asked me as the rest of the group was there other than Noah. "Leave me alone" was all I said as I walked passed them. I walked into the dorm and I went to our room to see Noah and the kids sleep. I deiced to go to the bathroom and look at my cuts. 'I looked ugly' I said as I got the razor out and cut more, but with each cut, something bad about myself.
'I'm useless
'I'm worthless'
'I should take a swan dive'And I kept on cutting. I then bandaged them up and I went to the living room and fell asleep. I woke up to see......Noah on me. It looked like he was crying a lot. He woke up and he began to cry and hug me.
Noah(POV): I came back with Kami, Shinsou and Jess and the kids and I can hear arguing. We walked in and I see Izu..... hurting Todoroki. I get that he hates him, but he shouldn't have done that. I gave my drink and I told Kami to hold it. I was able to get a hold of him and grabbed his arms. "LET ME FUCKING-" I cut him off by giving him a kiss. "Izu..... calm down" I said and Todoroki rolled his eyes. "YEA LISTEN TO THE BITCH" He said and Izu was about to attack when I stopped him. "Leave him.... he's not worth your time" I said and he dropped everything. He then had one knife, but he threw it at Todoroki leg and he yelled in pain. "Let this torture be a warning..... next time, there won't be a torture" Izu said and he stopped everything and walked to his room. That's when I thank Kami and me and the kids walked to the dorm. We then heard a loud 'bang' sound and the kids rushed to see what was happening. "D-Daddy" They said and I walked in and was shocked with what I saw. "Kids....... I" was all he said. I looked at his arms and started to tear up. "I-Izu..... why?" I asked, but he didn't know what to say. "I-I" was he was able to say before I left. "I need some time to think" He said and he left"N-Noah?" Was the lasting he said and the kids followed behind me. I got to the couch and began to cry. "P-Papa?" The kids said and they crawled onto the couch. "W-Why Papa cry?" Hiro asked and I smiled. "Papa no crying" I said and I wiped my tears. "Are you mad at Daddy?" Haru asked and I didn't know what to say. "I..... no....." Was what came out and tears began to form in my eyes and they rolled down my cheeks. The twins came and hugged me and I hugged them back. That's when I see Izuku come out, but he grabbed his keys and left. I went to our room to the kids down when I saw a book. It said 'Depression' on it. I opened it and began to cry. He had many suicidal notes and there was one he wrote today.
January 18th 2020
I just messed up. Now Noah and the kids hate me and Todoroki is pushing me to my limits. I didn't want to hurt him..... but what he said about Noah made me upset. Was Bakugou right? Am I really that useless? Maybe I am. I should've done what he said a long time ago...... take a swan dive off the roof. No one would care. I should...... but I should wait...... for now just keep cutting. It helps me with my problems. Welp..... I guess I should go to my favorite place. I just want everything to end....
I decided to put the book back and wait for him to come back to apologize. It was 2 in the morning and he wasn't here. So I fell asleep. I woke up and heard the door close. It was Izuku. He went to the bathroom and took a bath. He came out and looked at the bed, but he left. I waited for sometime and went to the living room and softly got on top of Izu and fell asleep on him. I woke up due to movements and I began to cry and hug Izu. "I'm so so so so sorry" I said. "Please don't jump off the roof. Please" I said and he was shocked. "Y-You read my notebook?" He asked and I nodded. "I'm sorry, I should've never said that. I should've heard you out first. I know I'm a bad boyfriend and I don't deserve you..... but I'm-!" I was cut off of by..... Izu kissing me. "It's ok bunny..... you didn't know..... and I won't jump" He said and he wiped my tears and kissed me again. "EWW" We stopped kissing and see the twins were up. "DADDY" They both said and they jumped on the couch. "How are my boys?" He asked. "GOOD" They said. "I'm really sorry you had to see that.... is there anything I can do for all of you to forgive me?" He asked and looked at me as well. "MC DONALD'S" The kids yelled. "Noah?" He asked. "Taco Bell please" I said. "Everyone get ready, were going out" He said and the kids ran to the bathroom. "Love you Zuzu" I said and he kissed my forehead. "Love you too bunny"
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FanficTodoroki cheats on Deku with Deku's childhood bully. That person is no other than Katsuki Bakugou. The entire class other than the teachers and Shinsou betrays him and talks about him behind his back. He goes to America and starts a new life there...