It's Molly and not Trolly

Who even are you?

Darren and I stayed a little longer however when it got later he had to go home because tomorrow starts school again and I can't miss that. The blankets were - thank god- dry and clean.

We are currently walking to the little hallway of mine and Darren is putting on his shoes. I am grabbing his jacket and when he is ready with his shoes I gave him his jacket. He accepted it and stood there just like me.

"So we gonna hug, Molly?"

"Yes. I'd love to."

So we hugged. But not just a few seconds no we hugged like we will never see each other again eventhough we both know we'll see each other tomorrow in school.

We loosen and I took a step back so I can look in his eyes. He probably a whole foot taller than me. I layed my head back and looked in his eyes.

"See ya tomorrow, Mol"

I answered still being in the same position...

"See ya, Darren"

I looked into his left eye and then in his right eye. I did something automatically - I kissed him... On the right cheek.
I went on my tip toes and kissed him on his right cheek. I kissed him. OMG MOLLY YOU LITERALLY KISSED HIM. what is wrong with you.

Well he didn't mind because he was smiling now and his eyes showed pure admiration. At least he's happy.

Oh so now you care about his well being, right Molly you know what happens right know, right?

I know. I also know that it's happening for a little while now. We both know that.

Okay maybe we just forget that little discussion with myself and look at Darren.

He's opening the door and on his way out. He waved one last time and then he was out of my sight.

When I closed the door I looked at the place where the bodies were. Hm all gone.. and everything's clean. Looks like nothing happened. Hm don't worry it's better clean than poddled with blood. So I closed the door and turned on my heels.

I went into the living room looking at the clock. Hm 7. I could go to bed or do something. I looked at the TV and the workouts looked kinda tempting. I know it's not healthy to do them know but you know what? Fuck it. You can't make something out of nothing.

I'll just do the full body workout, the silent neighbor workout and the quick six pack workout. Pfft haha I wish... I will prolly need 45 minutes and than I'll take a shower quickly and rest.

~ later

I am laying down in my bed, scrolling through instagram and wondering why those human are so thin but thicc. It looks amazing.

I stood up and walked in front of my mirror. I pulled my extra large shirt up and looked at my stomach area. This area disturbs me the most.

Everytime I do this, my head literally makes a whole scenario about those things, I think are the most responsible ones - and it's not healthy, because  some times I overthink and have some kind of yeah not seizure but like something similiar. Let's name it panic attack or just an attack.

With that thoughts I drifted into my needed sleep.