HALCYON | JT

repeat

"i hate you!" mattia yelled and i felt my heart break into a million pieces. mattia and i had been together for more then three years and we had moved in with each other. we always as arguments but never once, has mattia told me he hates me.

my eyes glossed over with tears and i ran upstairs and into the guest bedroom. my life was like it was stuck on repeat. one day, we're perfectly fine, the next, it's arguments and plates smashing. it's how my life went, and i'm not sure if i can cope with it any more.

i laid down on the bed and stared at the plain wall as tears escaped my eyes. why was i still here? why? why haven't i left yet?

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my eyes opened and i sat up from the bed. i looked up at the clock on the wall and saw that it had just gone ten pm. i let out a sigh and got off of the warm bed, made my way to the bathroom and turned the shower on.

i set it to the hottest level, in hopes of it being able to burn away the heart break and pain.

i stayed in there for a while before getting out and wrapping a towel around my body and making my way to my bedroom, where i saw mattia laying down, asleep.

i let out a breath and grabbed clothes and put them on. i turned off the lights and climbed into bed next to him. i felt mattia wrap his hand around my waist and pull me in close to him.

"i'm sorry.." he whispered and i turned to face him. "i really am... i don't hate you.." i nodded. "it's okay." i reassured.

it wasn't

"i love you." he said and kissed the top of my head.

no you don't

"i love you too." i gently smiled and buried my head in his chest, his hand rubbing up and down on my back.

"i'd do anything i could for you."

no you wouldn't

"i'd do the same for you." i mumble and close my eyes, knowing that a whole lot of arguments are soon to come.

i've literally got six books in my drafts that will all be posted when they're finished which is gonna be a while lmao. don't forget to vote :)