REGRETS

Chapter 1

Chaeyoung POV

"Chaeyoung wake up this is your first day in college. Wake up or you'll be late". My mom shouts at me.

"Yes mom I will be ready". As I prepare myself for school I remembered what happened after my highschool graduation.

3 months ago......

It's been a week since our graduation. My girlfriend Mina texted me that she wants to have lunch with me today, she also told me that she have something to say and it is important.

So now I am here at the food court and starts to look for her. And there she is in the less crowded place here in the food court sitting while checking her phone. As I approach her, she immediately look at me. I was smiling like an idiot because I just realized how lucky I am that she's my girl.

"Hey there you are". Mina smiles at me.

"Sorry for keeping you waiting baby. Traffic sucks". I smiled back and sit next to her.

"It's okay Chaengie I understand. I was not waiting for that long anyway". she smiles while talking to me. But I can see in her eyes that there is something bothering her.

"Are you okay? You look bothered".

"Chaeng I have something to tell you". Mina said, I was looking at her straight in the eye.

"What is it that you want to tell me?". I was waiting for her response, she was a little bit scared or sad while looking at me. "It's okay, please tell me. What's wrong?".

"It's about us". She was looking at me almost crying.

"Hey minari don't cry, what is it? You're making me nervous". I was caressing her cheek. "Please tell me".

She holds my hand. "I'm sorry Chaengie, but we can't continue this relationship"'

I was shocked and can't talk after hearing what she just said. A lot of thoughts was coming. Did I do wrong? What did I do that she wants this relationship to end? I starts to panic. "Why? What's wrong? Did I make a mistake? Did I do wrong? Did I hurt you through my words and actions? What's wrong?". I Was was looking at her and my tears starts to fall in my cheeks. I was so confused of why she is thinking like this.

"No you didn't do anything wrong. I just thought that we are going to college now. And as we talk before you said that you will be in States to continue your passion in Arts, and I'll be her in korea for college". She looks down. "I can't do long distance relationship chaeng". She was silently crying.

It breaks my heart seeing her crying. "We can make it work baby. There are a lot of ways to communicate now, there's skype or facetime. Even in messenger and on Instagram. We can communicate there". I was looking at her. Sadness and confusion was all written in her beauty face.

"No chaeng! You being here beside me is different. When you will be in states we will have different time zones and that sucks. There will be morning and here will be evening or maybe you are awake while me I'll be sleeping". She looks at me. "It will be hard for the both of us. I can't do it Chaeng. I'm sorry".

She stands up and ready to go but I stop her by holding her hand. "Please baby not like this we can still talk about this. We can fix this, we have other options."

"What are your options? Tell me chaeng, you'll not continue to go to States and just continue here in korea? No I won't let you. Remember when I went to your house to have dinner with you and your mom. I can still remember the excitement on her face while telling me you'll be in states for college to pursue your passion in Arts. She was so excited and proud that her daughter is going to States for college". She let go of my hand.

"I can't be a selfish girlfriend and ask you to stay here in korea and destroy you and your mom's dream to continue pursuing your dream in States, I'm not like that Chaeng".

"Please Minari don't do this please we can make it work". I was crying looking at her. This conversation breaks my heart in pieces.

"No Chaeng we can't make this work. We will just hurt each other. Being in LDR is so hard that we will just hurt each other". She's was ready to go

"Please baby don't do this".

"I'm sorry Chaeng but we can't continue this relationship".

And by that she left and didn't look back again.

PRESENT.......

That memory still breaks my heart.

After that encounter with Mina she never contact me again, she never answers my call or text. I miss her so much thinking about her everyday makes my heart aches because she's not with me anymore.