Life With You

Our first kiss

Tharn 's pov 

Type had a lot of tv commercials to deal with for these past two weeks. As his personal assistant . l constantly ask him about everything beforehand whether if it's work related or personal.

However, on the shooting set! type seemed a little off from his usual self .he was so reserved and was keeping distance from everyone.🤐He seemed distracted ,I can see him getting worse each time when the director asked him to do it again

His attention were drawn away from everything,unable to concentrate in between the shots .The director's were having some difficult time dealing with type's neglect.

As the main model,type was spoiling their shots and I didn't dare to ask him about it .As the hours passed , when we were all taking a break. I kept my eyes on type from where I stood near to the door .

In his dressing room

Now, type was seated near to his chair with his costume designer 'mino' and mino was busy setting up type's costume .type was wearing a thick brown leather jacket and a black brief with no pants .

Yes , he was doing a tv commercial for briefs which was a little too revealing but ,he looked hot .when mino left ,I made my way to type.I wanted him alone this time. A lot of things were on my mind that I needed clarification ,about him and bright .

I know that type won't set his eyes on me .he is with bright and it's okay for me ,I know for the past two weeks what I yearn for him, Type !

I regretfully made my way to his room. I ensured that there is no one except me in his room. I couldn't find any words to express my feelings for him .I wanted to say everything to him .Every possible things that I felt for him .I wanted to say

"I have fallen for you type"  , I love being with you, but I have to let you go.because , your with bright .I know that you won't be happy by my side and only by his side you will be happy ".

before I started to talk. All I could hear was him sobbing. I could see the tears running down from his eyes. He was crying out to me helplessly, he was whimpering like a child .

At first ,I was struggling to find the perfect way to console him 😭.I felt the sadness washed over his face,I couldn't bring myself to face him.it hurts so much that my chest feels like it is stabbed hundred times.but there's definitely something I can do to lessen his pain to make him stop.so , I kept quiet and let him cry for hours .

I didn't dare to ask him about Bright ,the room was almost completely in silence for a long period of time his muffled sobs resonated in the entire room making me hear his own breath and heartbeats racing violently. That's how it was inside .

Suddenly My thoughts were interuppted at the sight of type and Bright making out  in their car,being together ,Feeling each other. 

My fondness for him were lost at the very moment and it was replaced with something else like I can't understand whether it's love or just an infatuation,I knew that type was suffering through some sort of emotional pain .I waited for the whole morass to settle down before I dared to ask him .

Immediately , I felt the type's hand cupped onto my face .I flinched for a moment as the time passed .I felt the coldness of his soft hands spread across my cheeks .he pressed his lips onto mine locking his sparkling blue eyes with mine .I felt shivers down my spine. I reciprocated our kiss.but with in seconds I was chased by the painful desire for him

I know he's with bright .but ,every night after I saw them together at the parking lot, I couldn't erase those hurtful past that I was hung upon . I laid awake on my bed every night with their memories flooding through my eyes .wishing I could be the one enjoying the time being with him.

I helplessly wanted type , I was affected by him and the sight of them having a cosy time together ,sharing the same breath and the same warmth.I needed him , by my side with me 

my mind was all over the place and  their thoughts were consuming me for almost a month ,making me go insane .the more I think about it ,the more I wanted him by my side .

I needed him. I desired to be his in everything ,in every moment in this lifetime the only one I will love is you.  Type.