Dancing with your Ghost (A Jaylex love story) Discontinued

Chapter Seven

Tims POV
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Everyday for a whole week has been the same. Nothing has been happening surprisingly. Just eat and try to sleep which always fails me. The house doesn't seem the same with Jay gone. It seems way too empty and too quiet for my likings. Im so used to hearing his stupid voice all the time.

I manage to pull myself out of bed to start my day. I should probably try and distract myself. First order of business though is to make coffee and take my meds.

After making a pot of coffee I grabbed my bottle of pills. I should really get a refill before I relapse again. I only have a few left after sharing with Jay. I sighed. I miss him. Maybe I should have let him calm down and talked it out with him instead of leaving him behind.....

I took a sip of coffee and then grabbed a rag and decided to clean off my mirror. I keep hearing voices telling me "your fault". The voices, the mirror everything just keeps screaming that this is my fault.

*time skip*

Its night again. Im not very fond of the night. Just me myself and I staring out the window. Left alone with my thoughts. I sighed.

"I don't know what I thought was going to happen but... I figured it would at least be something. I've been here for weeks. No threats. No sign of Alex anywhere. Just nothing." I sighed. I took another sip of my coffee. I looked at the camera then back out the window again.

"I don't know maybe he's waiting for me to do something stupid. Seems like everytime I feel like I understand how all this works something else happens.
I mean I thought the safest thing to do would be leave Jay here but even that didn't work out..." we should have left state! That would have been safer I thought.

"Why am I the only one that's still here?" I hate being the only one left. I mean if Alex killed me I wouldn't care. Its all my fault anyways right?

"I don't want to be by myself again. This has been bad enough. Thought about buying a gun the other day but I'm glad I didn't. I wouldn't trust myself with one of them anyways. Alex is probably out there watching me. Him waiting on me. Me waiting on him. One of us is going to have to do something eventually." I looked out the window again.

"Of course if he thinks I'm going to be in here maybe I can be somewhere else." Wait. Thats it! I stood up and grabbed the camera.

"Maybe I should have started talking to myself sooner!" I grabbed my car keys and left the house. Would he even show up?