A Life Of Tears

chapter5

A LIFE OF TEARS #5

"I still can't really believe I'm facing you now." I said while still feeling our embrace that I hadn't felt for a long time ever since she thought of living abroad. " I miss you so much, Keesha"

"I miss you two, too." and Chloe joined us in our embrace while the three of us were purely wiping away our own tears.

"Teka lang girls 'di na ako makahinga" pag angal niya. And it was only then that we separated from choking in embrace of each other.

I miss her so much. I can see now the magnitude of her change, from one that is oppressed by all, but now she looks like an infrastructure that will never fall down to whoever intends to knock her out. In life, pain is inevitable. Without pain, without sacrifice we would have nothing. Pain changes people, and im glad to see her again firmly established, though something has changed in her but in a good way anyway.

I'm happy with what she is now, but I still can't deny I felt guilty for being wasn't there at her side during her vulnerable time. We really wanted to help her before, but she preferred and chose to be alone and stay away from everyone, from everything.

"Maayos na ba ang lahat?.." silence enveloped us for a moment because of Chloe's sudden question.

Chloe cared to question her. But she refused to answer the question in a more wasteful way of opening the food she prepared for us. However, we understand her. And as her bestfriend, its our responsibility to understand her why she wasn't yet ready to discuss the matter.

We know what she went through was not easy, so we always remind at her that we're always here at next, and when the day comes that she's ready to share her grievances and resentments, we will not hesitate to listen and empathize with her.

"Tulungan kana namin" sambit ko upang muling manumbalik ang sayang nabahiran ng biglaang tanong na naging kadahilanan ng pagbago ng temperatura.

Tulong tulong naming binuksan ang mga pagkaing nakahanda sa hapag na hindi padin maalis sa aming mga labi ang sayang dala-dala kanina pa. Pizza, almond cookie, cake, cinnamon roll, ice cream, macaroon, s'mores at madami pang iba ang mga hinanda niya.

"Bakit mo naman hindi sinabing uuwi kana pala? Yan tuloy kami pa tong nasurpresa." I exclaimed.

It's funny to think that she did the thing we were supposed to do to her but there is nothing more to do owing to the fact that it's currently happening.

"Excuse me! Noong tinawagan kita ay tungkol sana yon sa paguwi niya pero binaba mo bigla, at yong papunta tayo sa conference room ay tungkol nanaman sana yon sa kanya pero sabi mo mamaya na." and it was only then that I realized the stupidity I had done, even though I heard from her that she mentioned the name Keesha but I still didn't pay attention to her, for the reason that she was able to mention its name which for almost several years of absentee so it never crossed my mind that we could talk about it.

We were in the middle of our celebration when my phone suddenly rang so I excuse myself for a moment and there I heard kuya's voice.

"Are you home?" his opening question on the other line mixed with inevitable worry.

"Paalala ko lang sayo Rasheen hindi ko kayo pinapunta dito sa condo ko para makipag tawagan sa mga jowa niyo. Respeto naman sana." as expected ang isip bata sa kanilang mag tropa, kuya Enzo.

"Shut up Enzo, its Chloe"

At mula sa kabilang linya ay dinig ko dito ang malakas na paghampas ni kuya kay kuya Enzo, pero di na ito bago sa akin. That's how they cuddle, physically hurting. And I think that's really almost how men show their tenderness to their friends.