growth.

need.

"i need you."
hearing or saying those three words can either lead to passionate sex, or, becoming a sobbing mess in someone else's arms or your own. In my scenario it ended with me sobbing into my own arms. it's scary losing the one person you truly thought was your everything. I now constantly have the feeling of almost drowning, like i'm just about to lose my last breath of air but i can't stop gasping. I'm grasping onto my last breath.
this happened ages ago but i can remember it like it was yesterday. the wound is still fresh, and every time i think of it it's like i'm throwing salt into it. i don't regret saying it, because it's the truth. the outcome was not what i planned in my mind but you know, nothing really works out the greatest for anybody.
i do, however, regret saying it in the situation i did. i knew it wouldn't make anything better, showing my vulnerability, but i couldn't help it. you do stupid things for love.