You never know how much you value something until you've lost it.
That was exactly what I thought as I stared at the hardwood containing my twin sister, Paigne's cold and lifeless body.
Staring at her right now, all I can think about is how it all happened so suddenly.
I can't even remember my last words to her.
I hadn't expected it.
I had expected her to live- to explore - as she had always wanted.
Good things never last.
Of course, they don't.
They don't deserve to be tainted by this cruel world.
They deserve much better.
That was my only consolation.
The fact that my sister would never be tainted by the harsh cruelty of this damned world.
The fact that she remains her pure self in everyone's heart.
But I'm mad.
I'm furious.
I'm seething.
Most of all, I'm devastated.
Because she promised.
She promised to fight for her life. She promised not to leave me.
It was selfish of me.
I know.
But she was more than selfish to leave me all alone in this world.
I'll learn to live with it.
The hurt.
It'll take time, but I'll get better.
There's always light at the end of a tunnel.
And I do hope it shows up soon.
"Rest in peace Paigne. You'll forever live in our hearts." I watched as my mom furiously wiped at the tears falling from her eyes as she stared at the lowered coffin.
"It's over," I whispered, wrapping my arms around myself - to console myself - as my only sister was lowered into the soil, never to be seen on the face of the earth again.
