OCTOBER 17 2016 ONE MONTH AFTER THE DISAPPEARANCE (want to clarify that she is 16 in this flashback and they were all 16 when ethan disappeared and the next chapters will take place when they're 17 which leads up to present day)
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its been one month since ethan has disappeared without a trace. im starting to think he's dead. not one text as to where he is or why he did it. not even a goodbye. even grayson didn't get a goodbye. which is surprising since that's his twin brother and ethan trusted grayson more than anything.
im not mad at ethan for what he did, im just disappointed.
the twins and i have been best friends since as long as i can remember. it was us against the world. as we got older ethan and i developed an attraction to each other, but both of us were always to cowardly to act on it.
the last thing he ever told me was that he loved me, and not in a friendship type of way.
its been hard for me this past month. to have someone taken away from you for reasons you don't know of is emotionally draining. i think about him everyday. the cops in this town are shitty and gave up searching for him after a week. how pathetic.
grayson comes over a lot. we help each other when we both get into dark places. i like when he comes over, maybe its because he reminds me so much of ethan that its like im talking to him again.
I've even accidentally called him ethan a few times, and every time there would be an awkward silence between us.
my parents decided it was best if i started going to therapy. so that's where im going right now. they know i hate opening up about things but they thought it was for the best.
it was actually my sister alexis who mentioned it to them. i overheard them talking one night about it and then they told me the next day.
the car halted to a stop, taking me away from my thoughts. "jade honey, are you ready?" i turned to look at my mother who was sitting in the passenger seat of the white suv.
"i mean i guess so." i put on a slight fake smile for her, knowing that me doing this will make her happy and that's all i've ever wanted.
"i love you so much dear, i will pick you back up at seven." she told me while i opened up the car door and stepping out.
"i love you too mom." i closed the door and started walking to the entry way of the building. well, no going back now.
it was a group therapy session, with all kids around my age. i guess were all here for the same problems.
anxiety, depression, stress.
i sat down in one of the empty chairs that were all in a circle. the seats soon started to fill with unfamiliar faces.
"good evening everybody, i'm mr.hunksman and i'll be your therapist for today." he smiled nicely while sitting down in his chair holding a binder that had folder tabs sticking out of the sides.
he instructed that we all introduced ourselves and to say something that we needed to get off of our chests.
they went almost fully around the circle until it was finally my turn. "jade, you're next." the instructor told me.
"hi, i'm jade." i told everyone nervously. mr.hunksman motioned his hand for me to continue.
after taking a deep breath i continued, "i just recently lost my best friend. but he's not dead. he's just gone." i sighed. "thing is, i cared about him more than anyone else in the world. but it wasn't enough. he left like it was the easiest thing in the world to do." i finished and wiped away the tears that had fallen with the sleeve of my shirt and then looked down at my hands.
"thank you jade." he smiled and moved onto the next person.
i guess this wasn't so bad after all.
AN: okay so do y'all like it so far? ik it's only the first chapter but like yk lmaoo
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Фанфик"thing is, i cared about him more than anything else in the world. but it wasn't enough. he just left like it was the easiest thing in the world to do."
