Saturday, February 17
Finally my first day of break, I got to sleep in till 8 instead of 6. I woke up brushed my teeth,made coffee, and then settled in some yoga pants and a old Hollister tee. I got right on my Mac and started writing a fan fiction on One Direction because I have read some with them in it and it turns into a great story. I wrote and wrote and then around 12:15 my mom called and said she was taking a special law case in Beverly Hills, CA. She asked if I wanted to come and I jumped at the opportunity! I have been wanting to go to California for so long and now was my chance. I told her of course and asked how long we would be there? She said that it would be a week and a half. I screamed in my mind and told her I would love too. I hung up and then continued my fan fiction for a good one more hour and cooked myself some mac and cheese. My mom came home at 2 and told me that we were leaving in 2 days so get packing soon. I decided I would pack tomorrow and tonight go see my boyfriend. I called Lance and told him he should come over at 7 and he said he would come. I talked to him a bit and then started to get ready and straighten my hair and do my makeup. I was excited because my mom was leaving soon to go over her best friend's party and she was thinking about staying the night. I texted Lance and told him we would be all by our selves and he was more excited then I was. I cooked had some Cinnamon Toast Crunch and then waited on Tumblr till he came. At 7 he came over and immediately we went up to my bedroom. We watched She's The Man (well I did he had his attention some where else) and finally I turned the movie off and I kissed him gently on the neck and told him I loved him. He said he loved me too and then tried to take my shirt off. I unsure let him and started to take off his. I did not know what I was doing but then he started kissing me all over and took off my American Eagle jeans. Was I ready ? When we were both in just our under garments I told him I was not ready but he would not stop. I told Lance stop once more and he tryed to take off my bra and I said get off! As I struggled out of his reach he ripped off my bra. I resisted and jumped off the bed and then I told him to leave while I covered my self up. He said he was sorry and he didn't mean to but I was done with him for the night and wanted to be alone. I was scared and confused. Should I have let him ? As he left he told me he loved me and I shut the door and began to cry. I had mixed emotions and was just ready to leave for California.
