𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕤𝕚𝕕𝕖

chapter 2: sacrifices made

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Kim Seokjin pov:

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Seokjin was there when he saw the small body, which could be no other than taehyung, jump off a 150 ft bridge. It was his scariest moment of his entire life. Seokjin didn't know whether taehyung was going to live or die. Jungkook had been the one to reach him first with Jimin behind his heels, saying something about how taehyung wouldn't answer his calls after he just Dissapered out of sight.

And being the mother like figure to him that he was, he knew immediately. Taehyung wouldn't be here tomorrow. He would be on the other side. He wouldn't allow that!! How could he knowing that everyone would suffer if he was gone!! Especially jungkook!! How could he go to the other side and leave jungkook behind!? He would be so suicidal, FUCK IT he wouldn't loose another. No he wouldn't loose both!!

"how long has he been gone before you noticed!? Your supposed to like him for crying out loud!!" Jungkook eyes just teared up as he looked down hanging his head shamefully. "Y-your right... How could I not notice... I-im sorry hyung..." He just sighed and forced a smile as he unlocked his car getting in turning on the ignition as quickly as his cute fingers would let him. "GET IN!! I'M FLOORING THIS THING BEFORE HE DOSE ACTUALLY KILL HIMSELF!!"

Jungkook got in quickly without another word, after all his love was trying to leave him to go to the other side. He didn't want him to die just as much as Seokjin didn't want him to jump. Assuming that was the type of suicide he was attempting. Just as Jin started to pull out somebody banged on his window frantically.

"Anywhere your going I'm going. No ands ifs or buts about it. I care for taehyung just as much as you do."

Jin smiled and let him get in the drivers seat as he would probably crash the car if he did drive in his state anyways. "FLOOR THIS THING AS FAST AS IT WILL GO!! WE HAVE A SUICIDE TO STOP!! AND WE AIN'T LEAVING TILL WE DO!!"

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"TAEHYUNG!!" Jin screamed desperate as he ran as fast as he could on his small little legs, the others not far behind. He wanted to stop him and he had to be a little dangerous to do it. He wouldn't let that happen. He would save taehyung even if he had to-

Somebody grabbed him by his waist as he mentally cursed them and turned back to scream at them, but he saw who it was. Namjoon set him down on the ground gently and he proceeded to stop taehyung himself. No!! That's the last thing he wanted!! He didn't want Namjoon to get hurt!!!no!! He reached out but Namjoon was already halfway up there. "NAMJOON!!NO!! Y-YOU RECKLESS FOOL!!" Seokjin started sobbing and holding his head in his head trying to drown out everything around him. He was slowly suffocating. Everything was choking him around, hadn't he suffered enough?

He couldn't look up but he knew what had happened as he yelled out taehyungs name. He had jumped as well. No... Why... Why did this have to happen...!? I-if maybe he would've noticed earlier then... Then... All this wouldn't have happened... All this...

Is.

Your.

Fault.

Seokjin broke down and started screaming holding his head in his hands. He should die... All he caused was pain. The reason taehyung had jumped was probably because of him. Such a worthless slut. Go... Kill... Yourself..."you're right I am... I'm just... A useless..." Seokjin looked down at his hands shakily as what he saw wasn't pleasant. Blood. Blood was all over his hands. Kim taehyungs broken blood. "KILL YOURSELF!! JUMP LIKE HE DID AND YOU CAN BE WITH HIM, AND YOUR LOVE!!" he clutched his head again and screamed louder.

"DAGCHYEO, DAGCHYEO, DAGCHYEOOOOOO!!!" he started to hold his hands to his head tight trying to crush what was left of his suffering brain. That was when he heard the first footsteps. They walked up to the screaming Seokjin and grabbed him by the collar slapping him across the face. "GET IT TOGETHER SEOKJIN!! i-i might have lost taehyung... I'm not loosing you as well....lets go get our man's, yeah?" His lip wobbled as he tried to put on a smile for him. He failed so miserably it was cute.

Jungkook was right... What had he just been about to do...? He couldn't go to the other side when his band members needed him the most. Especially hobi, oh poor hobi!! What would he do without him there to guide him?? He would probably fall into darkness... Seokjin didn't want that... And what about poor jungkookie. He never asked for this. He would probably end up following taehyung to the other side with depression. The poor kookie would keep blaming himself even if it killed him. He couldn't let that happen.

"Y-youre right my kookie... W-e should really send them off... To the other side... Let's.... Go... Jungkook... " Seokjin so wanted to loose it again, but he would stay strong for his kookie because somebody needed to. How would you feel if your love jumped right in front of your eyes? They quickly walked hand in hand down to the Riverside as Seokjins legs wobbled. He didn't want to see what he knew awaited him... He didn't want to see his beloved... D-d... Fuck it he couldn't say it...

Why was the world like this?? Why do people have to be so cruel??! Did they even know what happened to the person receiving the messages?? DID THEY EVEN CARE!! of course not if it wasn't happening to fucking them!! Seokjin wanted to kill every last person till it was just him and all the other 6 band members with him. (Voice cracked a little mentioning his name, as well as Kim taehyung) "Kim Namjoon...kim Seokjin.... Min Yoongi...jung hoeseok... Park Jimin... Kim taehyung... Jeon Jungkook... B... BTS... "

Not anymore...

Not with only 5 members left...

They couldn't be BTS anymore...

Maybe it was better if they just disbanded...

It wasn't complete anymore...

All his fault...

If he had stopped Namjoon then maybe... If he had talked to Kim taehyung then maybe...

He walked up to the bay with shaky legs and waded in the water as it started to lighting. The water was running now fast and roaring threating to sweep him away off of his feet. He wouldn't let it just yet... He would find Namjoon and taehyung if it was the last thing he would do... It probably would be, to be honest the water was getting higher and higher the more it rained and he could hear his name(probably;couldn't tell because of the rushing/roaring water) nonetheless he kept on fighting for his life at the strong currents, not stopping his stride.

After all this was all his fault... He shouldn't have existed... Maybe if he didn't the world would be a better place... But they didn't deserve to go to the other side the way they were. Seokjin wasn't important and he was old so nobody would really miss him if he happened to be sweapt away. Not even jungkook. Sure he would grieve but he would get over it soon because taehyung was there with him. They were still young!! They still had a whole potential ahead of them!! How could they just throw it away like this!!

But somewhere in the back of his mind it screamed...

"BUT AREN'T YOU LITTERLY DOING THE SAME...!? YOU'RE NO BETTER THAN THEM... !!"

"Dagchyeo stupid mind. You don't have a say in this... It's better this way."

Yes it would be better this way... If it was him and not them-

"SEOKJIN...!! LOOK OUT!!"

Seokjin widened his eyes as a wave as bigger than him came at him 100 miles per hour taking him down with them. Down into the murky depts of its prison... He closed his eyes as he felt the air leaving his lungs. He smiled to himself as he thought one last thing.

"I'm sorry Namjoon... Taehyung... I couldn't save you again... I'm sorry jungkook... Jimin... Yoongi... And hoeseok... I'll be with joonie and tae now... Please live on... And be happy... I'm sorry..."

At that last thought the water rushed into his ears and he saw nothing but blackness and a bright light illumanting his path.