𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕤𝕚𝕕𝕖

chapter 3: namjoon's heart

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Namjoon pov:

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"Are they going to make it? What they have been through... I never expected a member of BTS to just jump... I wonder what happened...?"

"Yeah I don't know either. But it must have been serious considering that the 3 other band members are here as well. "

"I just hope that their ok... Worldwide handsome was the worst of all. Poor princess..."

"Well yeah he was pretty beat up and all, but it's not like all the others weren't as well. Your right though. It seems that he got the worst of them all."

"I still can't believe it... I would have never expected that. Especially Kim Seokjin..."

As soon as Namjoon heard his loves name he knew that something was wrong. He had to go check on him. He wouldn't be able to rest if he didn't. His body hurt and ached as he tried to get up but he couldn't leave Seokjin hurting. He needed him and he wasn't just going to push him away like some jerk would.

Namjoon pushed himself into sitting position, standing up was a challenge but not impossible. As soon as he got to his feet he walked to Seokjin's bedside and looked down at him, his tears threating to flow down his eyes. He looked auful... So auful... What had happened to him...? All Namjoon remembered was that he saw taehyung about to jump and...

Start of a flashback. Skip if you don't wanna read. Thanks!!

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"Taehyung!! Don't jump!! Seokjin and the rest of the band won't be complete!! Think about jungkook...!! "

Taehyung looked down a shadow underneath his sorrowful eyes.

"I-i can't do this Namjoon...all that I get....you would never understand... Just... Just... Leave... I don't want you roped up into this too. This is my doing and mine alone."

"Fuck it taehyung!! This is not just something for you to do alone!! If your going through some things then talk about it!! Don't just go doing something so... Stupid!! Are you out of your mind!?"

"dagchyeo...what do you know... You don't know anything... You don't know my pain... My suffering... My turmoil... All to keep the army happy... Well I'm sick of it...!! I-i don't want to please them anymore... Anything I do anyways is always overlooked...anything I try to do... Ruined...

" Taehyung listen to me for a gosh darn moment-"

That's when a loud screaming cut him off. He heard the voice of Seokjin yelling dagchyeo to himself over and over. How Namjoon wished that he could be down there with his love. Convience him that he was ok it was going to be alright. But he couldn't. He just couldn't. If he had a chance to save taehyung's life then he would take it in a heartbeat. It wouldn't be complete without him. Without any of them.

"DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE HEARD THAT PATHETIC SENTENCE!? NO I'M DONE LISTENING!! I'M FED UP WITH EVERYTHING!! I-I JUST WANT OUT!! HOW HARD IS THAT TO UNDERSTAND...!!"

Namjoon didn't know what to say. But that didn't matter as soon as he realized that he could do nothing to stop what was going to happen. It was going to happen, no matter how much he didn't want it to.

Fate was really a cruel word.

A tear slid down taehyung's cheek as he smiled the fakest saddest smile that Namjoon has ever seen from the boy. It broke his heart.

"I'm sorry... Tell jungkook that I love him... Goodbye Namjoon."

"TAEHYUNG!!"

and that was when he grabbed unto taehyung falling down with him...

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The main story continues here.

He clicked his tongue as he rested his hand on Seokjin's fragile face. He was still bitter about that memory. He didn't want to remember it, but yet he knew he was going to remember it forever. He pushed seokjin's bangs out of his eyes whispering to him with his emotional cracked voice. "Common love... Talk to me... I miss you... What happened? Seokjin... Baby... Please come back... I'm begging you... Please come back to me..."

He layed his head down on the bed his last chance to compose himself completely ruined. He cried his heart out on the bed as he clucthed seokjin's hand tightly, afraid that if he let go then he would loose the beautiful boy forever. He couldn't bare it if he did. He would be just like taehyung and the rest... suicidal thoughts... Depression... The other side. Even though Namjoon often wondered what was on the other side, he would never attempt to go there and leave Seokjin behind.

He cried and cried wailing and sobbing to himself telling his love to wake up. He misses him... But it didn't work. Alas Namjoon gave up hope and he felt himself get dizzy, all darkness surrounded him, and then it was nothing... Just a white empty space. A white empty space that he wanted to get out of. That he was suffering in. But the white box didn't care. It kept getting smaller, it was going to suffocate him...well fine... It would be nice to die this way. No pain, no suffering... He would get to see Seokjin again. And that was all that he could ask for. To see Seokjin again... Just once was fine...

He put his head in between his knees awaiting his unpainful ending as somebody spoke. And it wasn't just the voice of anyone, it was the voice that he wanted to hear the most. Seokjin's godly voice was finally talking to him again. He looked up and there was his beautiful princess standing right in front of him. "S-seokjin... "

"Namjoon. My baby, hello. I've missed you."

It was all too much for Namjoon to just not use all of his physical strength to pull the smaller boy into his arms. He held back a little knowing that Seokjin has been through a lot and was probably still hurting through it all. Instead he just silently got up and wrapped his arms around the blushing boy gently. He wouldn't let him go again.

"What the hell were you thinking!? Doing something as dangerous as you did... Do you know how much I was worried for you and your well being...!! Do you know how much I cried for you to come back to me!? Never do this to me again. And I mean never, understand?" Seokjin chuckled his godly chuckle that made Namjoon love the boy even more.

"Consider me warned Namjoon. I promise I won't do it again... Now what brought you here? Why are you here?"

Namjoon did not expect such questions from his love. What did he mean by, what was he doing here? Wasn't he supposed to be here with Seokjin? What was wrong with the picture? Namjoon didn't think that anything was wrong, or rather he couldn't see anything out of the ordinary. He had Seokjin, his life was perfect, and now he would get to be with Seokjin for the rest of his life on the other side. What was wrong with that? Well clearly Seokjin had a problem with it.

"Oh Namjoon baby... You really shouldn't be here... I don't want your fate to end up the same as mine. And the fact that you can see me is a red flag on its own. Oh Namjoon, what did you do?"

Namjoon didn't understand. What was Seokjin going on about? What was wrong? "Seokjin baby, why should I go? What's wrong... Do you not want me to stay...?" He was honestly a little hurt by what his love said. He didn't want him to stay, that much was very obvious. But why? It had to be something... It wasn't nothing...Seokjins eyes softened as he looked at his love and cupped his cheek softly.

"Oh Namjoon...thats not it baby. It's not that I don't want you here it's just that... This is the opening to the other side... Your not supposed to be here. Or rather you can't be here yet. It isn't your time baby. Wait for me I will be with you soon. Okay?"

Seokjin murmured as he let go of a struggling namjoon's cheek and Dissapered from his sight. Namjoon's chest had never hurt as much as it did in that moment. To be ripped away from something that you love can be truly agonizing. He just had to keep his promise to Seokjin, and wait for him however long it took.

"Alright Seokjin... I will wait... As long as it takes... Just please be back soon..."