The unthinkable

Its over I geuss

⚠️TW⚠️ talks of self harm
Ady POV
I been feeling a bit better lately but not to much my moms have me seeing someone but they know that I'm like them a I keep thing inside most of the time just like them. It's another late night but this night is different I feel weird I pick up the scissors I placed them in my wrist I make one deep mark then another I cut one last time but then I hear knock I ignored it for some reason of course some one walks it is my momma I know this was going to be bad bad after what happened to Anut Roslyn she runs over to me and throws the scissors off my bed and pulls me into a big hug I break down this is very much needed I feel her start to cry too I pulled away from the hug I run into the bathroom put my arms under the sink and I start to scrub and scrub I scream basically "COME OFF!" I feel hand behind me "Ady stop it stop your making it worse quite it" Mom and momma where both her know and you were crying so hard loud sobs come out I can't breath I am lying the bathroom floor i feel bad "I'm sorry" we were all crying at this point "I'm sorry for pulling you guys though hell I'm sorry for being me I'm - I get cut off " baby don't apologize this is just a bump on the way to recovery" I nodded "I love you guys" I say to them we sit there for another 30 minutes then I ask if a I can go stay with my Anut Pen this weekend and they said yes I know that Pen would be happy to see me so I called her "hey Anut Pen can I ask you something" "of course any thing for you crime fighter off spring" I laugh "can I come stay with you this weekend aka tonight" " you know it see you in 10" "ok love you" "love you too"
                   * 10 minutes later*
"Hey girl" pen says I smile I can tell that she knows somethings wrong she gave me a big hug and a walks over to my moms "hey PG what's up" she smiles at them "nothing much I'm going to take Ady shopping though" Emmy looks at me "don't spend to much both of you have shopping problems so don't kill your bank account Pen" she laugh I give my moms hugs and kisses and they say be safe all that jazz and just like that we are off we pull into the mall I was excited to hang out with my Anut today. We walked in and went to American Engle first to find new jeans for me we found this really cute pair so I tried them on they fit perfectly so we bought them then we went to like 50 other stores we were both caring hand fulls of bags. We stop to get take out on the way home we get to Anut pens house it's so pretty I love it we sit there and talk about stuff then the topic of my scars come up "would you believe me if I said I fell of my skateboard" she looked at me "no but you can tell me what actually happened and I will tell you more because I have a idea of what it is" I look at her "well um I um cut my my self sometimes I guess" I start to pick my nails I feel arms around me then Pen starts to talk "when my mom and dad died I went in to a deep deep Depression I cut myself in high school a lot it got bad but then people started to notice my arms more so I got called to the office and had to talk to someone every sense then but I like it now because it keeps me safe and they taught me how to live myself for me"I looked at her I can't picture her that sad I hug her so tight we talk more about different stuff then Hailey calls I answer "hey" I say "hey baby do you want to hang out at your house tomorrow" I think "I'm not sure I'll ask my moms then let you know I might not be able to though I'm hanging out with Anut Pen but I will call you when I get home love you" "love you too bye". Pen looks at me then I just said I love you to my girlfriend in front of family "shit sorry I don't tell my moms yet please also sorry for swearing sorry." She smiles and says " I just watched you smile so big for the first time in forever".

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