Germangie - The transporter

Chapter 18 - Maria's grave

Even though I thought Angie's nightmare won't affect me it actually did. I started to think about Maria.

I know I shouldn't be thinking about her now, but for some reason it made me think about her and what if she actually would feel betrayed. I mean I know she's already dead, but... I don't know.

I sound paranoid and I've never been scared of anyone actually, but this is the very first time that I'm so madly in love with someone and... It makes me kids scared too.

As I was laying in the bed I decided to go out to Maria's grave today when Angie isn't around. I don't want her to think something bad about me... But I have to do this...

After having breakfast Angie wanted to go to the Studio and wanted to take me with her, but I told her that I have some business to do and luckily she didn't ask anything more.

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When I made sure she leftbthe house I left too and first went to buy some red roses as Maria loved red roses so much and afer that I went to the graveyard.

A few minutes of walking there I found Maria's grave and I sat down to the bench that was in front of it and sighed deeply.

- Hello, Maria... - I said as I placed the roses down on her grave - How're you doing lately?

As I looked around I saw no one even near to the graveyard and it was completely silent.

- I know I haven't been visiting you for a very long time and I'm really sorry for that, but...

I took a deep breath before I continued:

- But my life was a total disaster in the past years... I've been lost emotionally without you and I just couldn't stay in the house where we used to be happy... The country where we used to be living... Because everything reminded me of you...

Now probably whoever saw me at the moment thought I'm crazy, but I didn't care. These words were those I was scared to say to anyone because I thought... I don't know what I thought to be honest...

- I've been depressed so I decided to be a "transporter"... But soon I fell in love with someone I thought I shouldn't have to...

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Angie's POV:

German is lying to me.

He said he's going on a meeting with Ramallo, but he said he haven't seen him around there... But then where is he?

I wanted to see him and I thought he might arrived home, but he didn't so I went to look around and search for him as he didn't even pick his phone up whoch left me really worried.

And as I was walking I ended up at the graveyard where I suddenly noticed him, sitting on a bench, mumbling to himself so I decided to sneak behind him and listen.

I know, this sounds awfully weird, but I saw something's bothering him all morning and even though I asked he'd never tell me what's his problem.

- ... But soon I fell in love I shouldn't have to... - he said - I fell in love with someone at first sight... I thought this could only happen with you, but I was wrong...

Just then I realized he was sitting at his dead wife's grave.

- I truly fell in love with her and even though she was realy mean I still could get her real side out and I fell madly in love and... I have no words, but I feel really happy now...

This made me smile.

- But I'm afraid... I'm afraid that you're gonna get mad at me... That you feel left out... That you feel replaced, or she feels like she's only a replacement... But it's not true...

This started to get interesting and I could really understand his fears.

- I love you, Maria... I always will, but I love Angie too... The love I feel for Angie is different... Exciting...

Exciting? That's interesting.

- I hope you're not mad at me...

At this point I decided to come out from behind the tree and join him.

- I'm sure she wants you to be happy - I said as I went to sit next to him.

- You think so? - he asked as he looked over to me. He didn't seem surprised by me being here at all.

- Yes, I do. If she really loved you I'm sure she'd be happy to see you happy - I smiled at him as I took a hold of his hand.

He looked at me for some time then smiled and pulled me into his arms, hugging me tightly.