What's Happening To Us (Completed)

Chapter 13

Chris's P.O.V

Since Cherish Is Still Sleep, I Guess I'll Just Begin Writing This Note About How I Feel I Just Hope That Whatever I Write To Her That She Doesn't Take It Too Much To Heart. I Don't Know How To Word This Damn Letter.

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I Wrote The Letter And Sat It Right Next To Her So That She Would See It When She Woke Right Up I Just Don't Know How She Would Take It Though. Hopefully I Get Back Before She Wakes Up.

Cherish's P.O.V

"Chris?" I Said Sitting Up Looking Around The Room But Not Seeing Him.

Since Chris Wasn't Here I Decided To Just Do My Daily Routine & Go Downstairs To Get Something To Eat But I Had To Take Built In Elevator Since Me Going Down The Stairs With Crutches Didn't Work Out For Me. On My Way Down I Thought About If Chris Wrote The Letter Or Not He Probably Didn't But I Won't Pressure Him About It Though.

"Goodmorning Babe, I Didn't Know You Left Early" I Said When Chris Answered The Phone.

"Yeah... I Did" He Said Sighing.

"What's The Matter?" I Asked Hearing That He Didn't Sound Like Himself.

"Nothin', Just Kind Of Tired You Know" He Said But I Didn't Believe It.

"Yeah, You Did Kind Of Leave Early Cause It's 8:30 AM Now." I Said Not Pushing The Fact That He Lied.

"Yeah, Did You Rea- Never Mind Did You Sleep Good?" He Asked.

"No Say It But Yeah I Did Well A Little" I Said Sighing.

“It’s Nothing Never Mind Babe But Go Back To Sleep I’ll Be Home In A Little While” He Said Then Hung Up Before I Could Even Say Bye.

I Made Myself Something To Eat Finally And I Hate That The Maid Wasn’t Here While I Did Because I Can Barely Move Around On Crutches And Hopping Is Just Gonna Make Me Trip And Fall Which I Really Don’t Want.

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I Didn’t Notice Chris Left Me A Note Till Now I Know Its Long Because Well Its Two Damn Pages So It Might Take Me A Few Minutes To Read It All Thankfully My Baby Got Some Good Hand Writing.

‘This Letter Might Not Be Fair To Your Heart But Trust Me Baby It Isn’t Fair To Me Neither. I Never Understood Why We Always Got Into Fights Day In And Day Out And To Be Honest I’m Sick Of It I’ve Lied To You And I’m Sorry Sometimes I Just Feel Like You Put Too Much Pressure On Me All The Time And It Was Times When I Actually Thought About Being With Somebody Else But I Came To A Conclusion That Those Thoughts Were Stupid Because I Can Never See Myself With Anyone Else. My Heart Is Hallow Sometimes And I Hope That We Could Really Change This Thing Between Us Because Honestly Since You Were 15 And I Was 17 We’ve Changed Within 6 Years, There’s All These People In Your Ear Telling You That You Knew What You Were Getting Yourself Into When You Agreed To Go To New York With Me I Didn’t Make The Choice For You, You Made The Choice And Your Choice Is What You Wanted Don’t Get Me Wrong I Really Love You And All But I Don’t Know How Much Longer We’re Gonna Keep Doing This And Stay Together I Wondered Whether You Still Love Me Or Not. I See You With All These Other Men And All And I Know You Be On Business With Modeling And Acting But Most Of The Times I Don’t Know What To Think. I Wanna Show You That Im Not A Little Boy Cherish I Just Need A Little Time To Think Things Over. I’m Sometimes Not Happy And No It’s Not Because Of You Sometimes I Just Want To Get Away. I Admit I Did A lot, Said A lot, And Lied A lot, But I Never Ever Thought About Cheating Or Breaking Up With You I Gotta Find A Way To Find A Way What This Relationship Is About Because I Don’t Want It To Just Be About Sex, Lies, Or Arguments But About Us Loving Each Other Every Day I Hope That We Stay Together. Im About To Honest And By Being Honest I’m Just Gonna Admit It I’ve Danced With Other Girls And Even Looked At Them But I Will Never In My Life Hurt You. The Truth Hurts And I Know This But Also A Lie Does 10 Times The Hurt Wish That You Would Stop Blaming Me For Everything And You Know That I Will Never Leave Your Side But You Seem To Not Know That I Always Wanted To Know If You Trusted Me Or Not I Need To Know This Because It Seems Like Every Day We Become Distant But At The Getting Closer, I Don’t Get You, I Don’t Get Us Sometimes. I Knew That When You Were Pregnant With Christian No Scratch That When I First Met You That You Were The One That I Was Gonna Marry One Day And Be With Forever And At Night When Turn Away From Me Snatching The Covers Acting Like You’re Asleep When You Know You’re Up I Know It Cherish And I Know That When I Leave The Room You Cry You Might Of Thought That I Didn’t Know This But Baby I Do, I Know You, I Know How You Feel Sometimes If I Ever Lost You Or Christian I Mean I Would Have Nothing Left Because This Fame Shit Don’t Matter At All. The Way I Feel For You Is On A Whole Different Level And I Work As Hard As I Do To Provide For Y’all Even Though You Got Money Of Your Own. I Hate To Bring This Up But I Won’t Even Let My Auntie Come In Between Us And I Know You Real Baby And I’m Not Saying Because You Didn’t Go After My Money It’s Because After All The That We’ve Been Through Or Going Through Now You Still Held Me Down Till This Day And I Love You For That But It’s Just Sometimes You Got To Realize That I Would Do Anything For You But When We Argue It’s Always Something Someone Else Said Or Did And I Wanna Get This Straight That It’s Only Two People In A Relationship The Outsiders Don’t Matter I Know I Have A Family To Take Care Of And That’s Exactly What I’ll Do It’s Been 6 Years Cher, 6 Damn Years And I Can’t Believe We Act Like We’re Both 5 Years Old Fighting Over Little Things. I Hope You’re Thinking About What You Wanna Do By Now Because I Honestly Don’t Know What’ll Happen With Us Next. What’s Happening To Us?