She's A Keeper (Lauren x y/n)

Part 14

LAUREN'S POV
My world just came crashing down. Nobody wants to hear those words come from a doctors mouth. But here i was, replaying those words in my head over and over again. 'We lost her' is now going to be the three words that haunt me forever. I can't believe this has happened. We never expect something so horrible to happen to someone we love so dearly. One day they're there, the next they're not. I wish i could hold her and tell her how sorry i am. I hate myself for the shit i've said and the hurt i've caused her. I won't ever get the chance to actually apologise.

As i was deep in thought, the doctor walked out and gave me a sad smile. "You can go say your goodbyes if you want, we'll inform her parents." I gave him a tiny nod in return.

As soon as he left, i took a deep breathe and slowly inched my way towards the door to Y/N's room. My hands were shaking like crazy. My hand made contact with the door handle and i slowly pushed it down and pushed open the door. I stepped in and the door clicked closed behind me. The fragile body of the girl who has my whole entire heart lay there motionless. Lifeless. There's that word again, lifeless, she had her whole life ahead of her but that's now all been taken away by a single bullet. I couldn't save her. The doctors couldn't save her. She couldn't save herself. Nobody could save her.

I sat down on the chair besides her bed and that's when i let the tears fall. Tear, after tear, after tear, they just wouldn't let up. I've lost her. She's gone.

"I'm so fucking sorry Y/N/N, i love you so fucking much. Please just come back. If you come back, we can go play soccer with Max, me, you, Max! Fuck, i'll even go in goal!!" I let out a sad teary laugh thinking back to the times at the start of our friendship where we'd be playing soccer with Max and Y/N would beg me to go in goal but i refused every time. "Please Y/N." More tears came crashing down. "If i would've just kept you with me and not let you go out there, you would've been fine, you would've made it out alive! It's all my fault, i'm so sorry Y/N. I'm sorry. Please just come back, i'll do anything! I love you so much." Nothing.

She didn't even move a muscle. She's truly gone. I'm never going to see her again, never gonna be able to hear her laugh, see her smile, hear her voice, see her walk into school everyday, look into those mesmerising Y/E/C eyes ever again. I lost her.

I tried to gather myself then i stood up to leave. I'm leaving the love of my life behind. 

Rustling. Beeping. Movement.

This can't be happening. I'm imaging it all. It's in your head Lauren, she's gone. I looked behind me to see her still lying there as still as ever. See, i told you she's gone. I turned back around to walk out of the door.

"L-Lauren?" No. It can't be. I'm definitely imagining this. The doctor said she didn't make it. "T-this i-isn't your f-fault by t-the w-way."

I turned back around and her eyes were open! SHES ALIVE! She heard everything i said. She's here. She's breathing. She's moving. Thank fuck! I ran straight to the side of her bed and pulled her into a tight but careful hug as more tears came running down my face, collecting on her hospital gown. I called in the doctor and he was extremely confused on how she made it but he was happy none the less. He did some tests on her with me still in the same exact position, refusing to move, and she seemed to be perfectly fine for now. He said he'd come back and do more thorough tests later on but for now Y/N can just relax and get some rest.

"You're alive. Oh my god, thank fucking god you're alive. I don't know what i'd do without you." I sobbed into her chest where she still held me. She moved over on the bed so that i could lay down next to her. I did so and laid my  head on her chest, holding onto her as tight as i could.

"Shhh Lo, i'm here, okay? I'm alive and i'm not going anywhere anytime soon, you're stuck with me whether you like it or not." She laughed at herself slightly and i couldn't help but laugh along with her. I never thought i'd hear that laugh again.

"I'm so glad you're okay." She held me tighter and massaged my head. I started getting a little tired as she carried on with her actions, my eyes starting to get heavier and just as i was about to let sleep consume me, she spoke.

"Do you really love me?" I tensed up. Fuck she heard that. I looked up at her, laying my chin on her chest. She stared into my eyes intently.

"Yeah, i didn't just say it because i thought you weren't going to make it back in the cafeteria, i meant it and i do mean it. I love you and i have for quite a while now, you just make me insanely happy and i know i messed up so bad and i'm so sorry." I looked down with a frown on my face. "I was a complete bitch to you and i understand if you don't feel the same, i understand if you want me out of your life because it was basically my fau-" She cupped my face making me look into her eyes once again.

She cut me off by placing her lips onto mine. They were soft and plump, her lips fitted perfectly around my bottom lip. She kissed me with so much love and passion, i put just as much back into it too. My stomach was going crazy. It felt like we were the only people in the world, like time just stopped. It only lasted a few second but it felt like a lifetime. She pulled away and i immediately missed the feeling of her lips against mine. She rested her forehead against mine.

"Don't you dare blame yourself for this, i went out there because if i didn't, he would've hurt a lot more people. You could've been one of those people Lauren, i wouldn't be able to live with myself if you had gotten hurt. It's better one person getting hurt than every other student in that school getting hurt or worse dying." She never broke the eye contact. "And i love you too Lauren. I've loved you for the longest time and i'd do anything to make you happy, you mean so much to me. What happened between us is in the past now, okay?" I just gave her a small nod in response. "Let's forget it all and start new."

I couldn't wipe the smile off my face as i nodded in agreement. She loves me too! I can finally have Y/N. She's finally mine. Well technically she's not officially mine but in my head she's officially mine. Wait what about Camila?!?

"Wait, Y/N?" She hummed signalling me to continue. "What about Camila? Aren't you guys still dating?" I decided to voice my thoughts. She just laughed at me which confused me even more.

"Long story short, we were fake dating." I looked at her expectantly, she can't just leave it at that tf. She sighed but then continued. "Okay so she wanted to make Imogen jealous because she likes Imogen and Imogen clearly likes her but Imo won't act on her feeling so we decided to try give her a little push. And i was trying to make you jealous so you would maybe leave Brad and get with me." She said the last part quite quickly while scratching the back of her neck, something she does when she's nervous.

"Well it definitely work worked you little shit." I pushed her playfully as she let out a small laugh. "I had the urge to beat Camila up and tell her to back off a couple times but i stopped myself." We both laughed this time and the let a comfortable silence take over.

We just cuddled for a little longer when the door opened revealing Camila with relief written all over her face and an over the moon Max.

"Hey buddy!" Y/N said holding out the arm that i wasn't occupying to Max. He sprinted to her and she pulled him in to give him a hug. "Hey Camz!" Max moved out of the way so Camila could come and give Y/N a hug.

"Thank god you're okay, i don't know what i would do without your annoying ace." Camila said causing Y/N to let out a little chuckle. "How are you anyways?" She asked concerned for the Y/E/C eyed girl.

"I'm okay i guess, i'm extremely tired though."

"How about you get some rest and we'll wake you up when the doctor come back to do some more test" I suggested. She looked over at me with a small smile on her lips. She pecked my lips and nodded her head.

Max climbed onto the bed and laid down on Y/N's chest as i laid my head on her shoulder with my arm around Max and her waist. She had her other arm wrapped about Max and she intertwined our fingers together before closing her eyes ready to fall asleep. Camila sat in the chair next to the bed with her phone out. Soon i heard light snores coming from both the Y/L/Ns in the room. I looked at them with nothing but love.

This is where i want to be for the rest of my life,  with Max and Y/N. Nothing could ruin this moment right now. I fell asleep soon after with a content smile on my face. I could get used to this.

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I hope you liked this chapter, I'm glad you're not dead😁. And what will happen between you and Lauren?

Thank you for reading, I love you all! Have a good day/night/whatever<3