Warnings: Talk of ghosts, talk of killing yourself, talk of being in dark place
Y/B/N stands for your bestfriends name
Y/N POV(reading the letter)
My Darling,
if your reading this it means two things 1) i've done it and my mother or someone else has given it to you or 2) you found it and are gonna asking me about this. assuming it's option 1 i just wanna start with that i'm sorry. I'm sorry for leaving you after i promised that i'd be with you for forever but i lied and i'm sorry for that. I know i should have talked to you about how i've been feeling but i thought that you wouldn't care. i know we promised we'd tell each other everything but this, this i can't tell you because then you'll stop me and if you stop me i'll be mad at you and i don't want you to have to deal with that. If your still reading this i want you to go to the top left drawer of my dresser and pull out the box in the back right corner. in that box is the engagement ring i intended to give you. i'm sorry your never gonna get the proposal from me, the big wedding with our families together, the house with the big yard, and the children. we'd talk about that all the time and i'm sorry i'm not gonna be the one to give them to you. Y/N i want you to be able to move on from me. I need you to be able to do whatever is possible to move on. that could mean throwing and selling all of my things, burning things, anything. I don't want you to feel bad about moving on though. you have every right to. i'm not rushing you to move on right away which i'm sure you won't. In the end you will be okay. i'm not sure how long this will take but i know you will be ok, your a strong person my love don't forget that.
forever and always, your love vinnie
Y/n POV
I put the letter down and i'm now full on sobbing. Reading this answers the question to if he wrote this a while ago and he did. That make's this even more upsetting because he was planning this. I get up to go splash my face with cold water to help calm me down and maybe organize my thoughts. When I looked back up at the mirror I swore I saw vinnie, he was standing there leaning against the door that lead to the bedroom. I whip my head around to see if he's actually there but hes not. "Why would he be there he's dead" I think to myself. I walk back to the bedroom and there he is on the bed. "AAAHHH" I'm screaming and he's just staring at me with a smile on his face. "Your dead" "Yeah i am" "Then how the fuck are you here? Actually it doesn't matter because I know that this is just me hallucinating, I haven't slept in a while so it's just my imagination" I say trying to relax. "Well that's were your wrong. Yes I'm dead, but i'm here your not going crazy" He says getting up from the bed walking over to me. At this point were face to face only a little bit apart. I don't know how to process all of this. Here is my dead boyfriend looking at me. "I see you read the letter" He say's after were quite for a moment. "yeah I did" I walk over to my side of the bed and pick the letter back up. " Wh-When did you write this? I mean you said that i would talk to you "if" I found it." I say not looking at him. " Well I- I wrote it in November of last year. I was starting to get back into my dark place again and I just wanted to have this just in case I ever did kill myself" "Well good prepping because this came in handy didn't it" I say with sarcasm dripping from my words. " I know I messed up doing this. I was only thinking about how much better I would feel. I didn't think about anyone who loved and cared for me." "Well clearly you didn't because you did it anyway. You didn't think about how any of your friends would feel or your family, or even me and your parents and your brother. They are heart broken because of this." At this point i'm screaming. " Y/N you should cal-" " DON'T YOU DARE TELL ME TO CALM DOWN. I was doing better and then you just show up out of nowhere. Why are you even here? do you know why because the sooner you do what you need to do i want you gone." As soon as I said those words a look of sadness flashed acrossed his beautiful face. "Vin i'm sorry I-" "No i get it you don't wanna see me, i'm not sure why i'm here really but I think I need to say my final goodbye to you." "Vin what to you mean?" "Well with my parents and reggie I called them a couple hours before and I talked to most of our friends. The only person I didn't speak to was you because you were out with Y/B/N. I didn't say anything to you that day because you left early in the morning and I just didn't think about it at the time." "Ok so what does that mean? You say goodbye and thats it or what?" " I don't know I guess we'll find out" He get's up from the edge of the bed and walks over to me and grabs my hands. His hands are warm like he's alive this is so strange, I feel like this is a dream. " okay here goes nothing. Y/N my love this is my proper good-" "WAIT I don't want you to leave yet I just got you back just stay the night at least and then you can say goodbye while i'm sleeping so i don't have to know." "of course anything for you my love." We climb into bed and we cuddle together, my head on his chest and his arms holding me tightly. Before I fall asleep I feel him kiss my head and whisper " I love you my darling forever and always."
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so as you can tell i did get the chapter out today! Hope y'all enjoyed it
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Forever and Always, My darling- V.H story
FanfictionVinnie took his life and his girlfriend has to learn how to cope with the loss of her boyfriend of 4 years. After her funeral she thinks it's the last time she'll see him or so she thinks.... Read to find out what happens! !Mature!
