Haikyuu One Shots

•Ghosting•

Tw: mentions of self harm, anxiety, possible eating disorder, etc. This will contain depression which means angst!

If you are triggered by any of this, please don't read it!!

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Kuroo's pov

After I graduated high school, Kenma hasn't said a single word to me. He leaves me on delivered for hours and opens the messages at such a terrible time at night.

I swear that boy never gets sleep.

I know he's mad at me for leaving him alone. We've been linked by the hip for ages and I left him. And what's worse is that I probably left him at the worst time possible. Kenma's mother has told me he's fallen into a depression.

"He doesn't come out of his room anymore. All he does is sleep and barely showers once a week."

Kozume's mother told me on the phone one night. I called her to check up on him. He never answers me back, but despite this I still send him the goodmorning text that we used to always send to each other.

Kenma means the world to me and it hurts my heart to see him suffer.

I know he's suffered from insomnia and self-harm and it scares me to think that he might have relapsed.

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Kenma's pov

After Kuroo graduated, I've never felt the same.

I struggle with eating, getting out of bed, showering, etc. I can't respond to Kuroo because I know I'll start to cry again. Something I've done so much that my eyes can't seem to shed another tear.

His little goodmornings he'd send every morning was the only thing keeping me going. That was the only thing that got me out of bed. That was the only thing that got me going to school. And most importantly that's what kept me from self-harming.

I know those cuts on my wrists makes him upset, and it kills me to see him that way.

It sucks.

His messages asking how my days have gone always made me sad. And when I don't answer him back, he always seems to keep the conversation going.

He'd talk about his day. His friends. How he misses me. And what always gets me sobbing is when he talks about how much he wants to kiss me and love on me like before he left.

He sent me to this depression. It was inevitable that he'd leave, but I wish he just stayed with me.

For another year I haven't sent him a single message.

Kenma:
Hi

Sent 4:04 am

I sent him that one word months after I've graduated high school. Kuroo didn't respond. But I expected that. It was four in the morning and it'd be concerning if he was up at this time.

I ended up falling asleep afterwards, something I don't do often.

When I woke up at ten, hair a mess, i saw about ten thousand messages coming from Kuroo.

I snorted. That dork.

His messages mostly consisted of 'omg' and scoldings because I ghosted him for over a year.

Kenma:
im sorry

Kuroo:
Why did you ghost me?
I was so fucking worried about you kitten
I'm so glad that you're talking to me now tho

Kuroo sent about another ten thousand texts.

And for once in my life I felt at home.

I felt like I had someone.

I had my emotions back to normal.

I'm tired of having these sheets of depression, anxiety, and worry over me.

It's time to take these sheets off.

I'll stop hiding under them and finally come out.

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A/N
Hi! I'm back. I was listening to ghosting by Mother Mother and thought about this little concept. If you haven't listened to the song I totally recommend that you do!

Also fun little fact, I kinda based some of Kenma's emotions about the goodmorning texts off of how I feel over my friend sending them to me every morning. (Hehe love you Jay).

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