Someone Different ~Bunny~

Fresh Beginning

Butters looked at himself in the mirror, running his hands over his body and sighing. He didn't know what was wrong, he just wasn't...happy with himself. Not just with the way he looked, but the way he was as a person. Throughout South Park he was known as the cinnamon roll, or innocent boy that may or may not be gay. And up until just a month ago he never even thought about himself but one day, when he was at a party at Token's mansion (and being ignored) he suddenly realized that he just didn't like himself.

He didn't like how he looked, he didn't like how people thought of him and he really didn't like how he saw himself. He really wasn't the child like guy anymore, he was 16 and he found himself cringing and even getting pissed off when his friends joked about it. That wasn't him anymore. The problem was, he didn't know what he was now. He felt so, disoriented, like, he didn't know who he was.

Butters sighed and moved away from the mirror, sitting down on his chair in front of his desk. Lazily twisting his chair around he finally decided to open his laptop and once again distract himself by going on YouTube.

He scrolled through his recommended, though he wasn't allowed to have an account so it wasn't personalized. Funnily enough, that helped him come across a video of what seemed to be a feminine guy. Butters was very involved in LGBTQ culture and he was probably the only one who really respected the community in South Park but he never really considered himself to be part of it.

Curiosity took hold of him and he clicked the video. It was a tutorial on aerial silk dancing and how to do different moves. The man carried himself in a sensual but beautiful way and spoke very nicely. He was a slender young man, probably in his early 20s and Butters felt hypnotized. He didn't even know what the guy was talking about but the moves were so smooth and before Butters knew it, he had watched all 20 of the guys videos.

But it wasn't until an Answer and Question video of his that Butters snapped awake from his daze.

"Now, a lot of people ask me, hey, what is your identity and sexuality, which could be a little weird but I understand. I identify as a Male and I would say I'm pan sexual, to be honest I'm not really interested in having a relationship so I also consider myself to be part of the Ace spectrum but I'm definitely attracted to people. Sometimes I'm bothered by the fact that I don't have a concrete sexuality but then I just remind myself, that that's okay! I enjoy life and there is always time to think and change. I wasn't always like this, until I was 16 I considered myself a straight male, albeit a little feminine in ways I acted. But after a period of uncertainty and confusion I realized that I needed to experiment with myself and so I did! I found out that I'm not only attracted to women and that I'm feminine and I enjoy being feminine. My style is feminine and my personality has definitely changed. So, I really encourage other people who are struggling with themselves and confused with their identities to experiment and branch out. And definitely try to have a close friend you can confide in. Now on to the quest-"

Butters paused the video, and sat limp, his mind racing.

Experiment, experiment, experiment...