Through Days And Nights SAHYO

Chapter 30

Park Jihyo

After my birthday, the illness of Sana worsen her health

Every night she's suffering because her head is so painful,

She keeps pushing me away every time she suffering she locked the door she doesn't want me to see her like that but doesn't she know that is more unbearable for me knowing that she's suffering and I can't do anything about it?

She's skinnier than before, she doesn't have the energy every day

She doesn't want to eat, she doesn't want to drink water, she told me it hurts her stomach

Because every time she eats, she can't digest it that's why she will just spit up it, and then after she throws out all the food she will choke in blood again.

Jackson told me last night that she can't make it, and I have to let her go because he thinks the reason why Sana keeps wanting to live is that she can't leave me alone

Sana thinking about what will happen to me if she leaves me

Sana is not here in our house, because she is with Jackson at the hospital, I told her I want to go with her but she doesn't want it

That's why I am just sitting here outside our house waiting for her to come home

After an hour of waiting here, I finally see a car coming to our house

But it was a different car,

I saw her hopped out of the car followed by someone I think it was one of her drivers?

Who leaves us after she drove Sana

"Park!" She called me so I ran to her she opened the back seat and get the human size bear and a bouquet

"Happy Valentine's day!" She said and push me the bear and the bouquet as she does before

This time I didn't think twice and get the gift she gave to me I didn't know that it's already Valentine's day

"Thank you!" I said to her and kissed her I held her arms to help her walk to our home

"I have another gift for you," She said and stop for our walk

I frowned at her, what is it? I waited for her to say something and she pointed to the yellow car she rode on earlier

"That car is for you," she said and hand me the key

"What?! Why?!" I said to her

"Ouch! Your voice is loud" she said "you will need that someday don't refuse it I can't leave you just like that. It was nothing tho" she said to me then I remember what Jackson told me

I helped her to walk to the swing we always seat to watch the sunset

"Are you cold?" I asked her when we sat down

"Nope, your body keeps me warm," she said to me

And I smiled at her

"Are you my girl now? You accept my gift" she said to me

"Is that the reason why you thought I'm already yours before? Because I accepted your gift?" I asked her

"Why? Is that not how to make a woman yours? I mean I never gave anyone gifts like them, is that not enough to show you that in interested you before?" She asked me

"That is not how you make woman yours, you didn't even work for it before, what do you expect me? That I will just agree to be your girlfriends before? Knowing you're a jerk before?" I asked her truthfully

"Ouch! That's a foul babe" she joked "I'm sorry I don't know how to court" she said to me

"I know, but it's a YES," I said to her

"What do you mean Yes?"

"Yes, I'm your girlfriend now," I told her and she hugs me

"Really? Wow! Thank you babe!" she said gratefully

"You don't have any idea how happy I am babe," she said smiling faintly

And lean on my shoulder

"I love you, babe," she said to me and held my hand while her right arm was a wrap on my neck

"Will you sing for me?" She asked me and choked

"Sure, but I want you to know that you can rest now babe, you don't have to worry about me. I will be okay, I can handle it I'm strong right?" I told her I feel her nod to me

"Close your eyes babe," I said to her and kissed her eyes

Ain't never felt this way
Can't get enough so stay with me
It's not like we got big plans
Let's drive around town holding hands

I started the song, fighting not to cry.

And you need to know
You're the only one, alright, alright
And you need to know
That you keep me up all night, all night

I was holding her hands tightly and squeezing them.

Still holding my tears fighting not to sob, but my voice is cracking

Oh, my heart hurts so good
I love you, babe, so bad, so bad, oh
Oh, my heart hurts so good
I love you, babe, so bad, so bad

Singing the lyrics from my heart, I want her to know that I love her, I love her so much that it hurts so much to see her like this

Mad cool in all my clothes
Mad warm when you get close to me
Slow dance these summer nights
Our disco ball's my kitchen light

Yeah and you need to know
That nobody could take your place, your place
And you need to know
That I'm hella obsessed with your face, your face

I want her to know that she's all I want, that no one makes me feel like this, no one opened my heart as she did

Oh, my heart hurts so good
I love you, babe, so bad, so bad, oh
Oh, my heart hurts so good
I love you, babe, so bad, so bad, oh
Oh, my heart hurts so good
I love you, babe, so bad, so bad, oh

Before I can end my song I felt her hand wrap my neck fell down to my lap, which makes me cry even more

So bad, oh
Oh, my heart hurt
Oh, my heart hurt
Oh, my heart hurt
So bad, oh

"Babe, rest well, don't think of me I will be fine even it hurt so much. I love you so much more than you can think of" I said crying holding her tightly to me

"God!! It fucking hurts!!" I sobbed

She's gone, Sana left me alone