Falling, crying,
Never dying,
Never flying.
Fighting hard,
Falling down,
Wrists no longer white.
I’m bleeding red,
Will someone see?
The true side of me.
I’m on fire,
Screaming out,
Can’t anyone see
I’m dying right in front of them.
I won’t be surprised,
When they don’t see I’m gone.
I won’t be scared,
To tie that noose around my neck.
I can’t cry,
When I swallow those pills.
I won’t die,
When I continue to bleed red.
Will they ever see?
I don’t parade around,
I don’t let my emotions show.
I feel like I’m dying,
But I haven’t even started yet.
Tell my friends,
I don’t care.
Tell my family,
Sorry I couldn’t love you.
Tell my heart,
Don’t worry
You don’t have to feel anything anymore.
Tell my soul,
Don’t worry,
You don’t have to cry anymore.
But I can’t cry,
Can’t someone see?
My tears don’t fall,
Unlike my heart.
I don’t want it to beat no more,
I just wanna fall,
Jump from the cliff.
I wanna be high,
Be somewhere small and dark,
So I don’t have to see,
The sad look in my eyes.
I turn to you my friends,
But you don’t turn to me.
I want to scream at you,
But I know I’ll screw up.
Just like I screwed up everything else,
Just like I screwed up myself.
I’m sorry little brothers,
You can’t be around me.
I’ll only fuck you up.
I have too many questions,
With no answers.
I’m crying out to you all,
Pleading for your help.
Don’t come and save me. Just let me say sorry.
