::𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫::

~home~

TW// panic attacks and mentioning of relapse.

Noah: I woke up to the feeling of a dead arm. Great I thought. Looking down, Dixies vulnerable face was shielded into me and I could tell she was really scared and upset by what the pap had said to her.

Noah: dix? I whispered as I grabbed her her and tucked it behind her precious face.

Dixie: I heard him. But I didn't reply. I was so lethargic and tired that I didn't even bother to move.

Noah: baby?! This time I raised my voice louder in concern but my racing heart was met with a soothing 'shhh' that escaped Dixies limp lips.

Dixie: good morning I sighed and then cuddled back again this chest.

Noah: hunni, I giggled we have to go home soon you know that I frowned

Dixie: I'm ready when you are I said softly as my pursed lips caressed his cheek with care.

Noah: I giggled again and pulled the covers off me, I assured Dixie I'd take care of the packing.

Dixie: what a good boyfriend I thought. When Noah had gone into the other room I was met with strange and intrusive thoughts, all I could think about was what would I do without him in my life? I probably would have relapsed or maybe even worse? My thoughts were racing fast and so was my heart, slowly I got up to open the window and get some air but I felt my lungs start to become tight.

Noah: Dixie??!! Oh no.

Noah's flashback

One minute I was packing the bags for me and dix and the next I heard a loud bang coming from the room next door. Of course I ran in there and I saw Dixie kneeling on the floor with her head rested on the pillow breathing heavily. I scooped her up and held her tight, immediately her breath started to regulate again. She cried into my shoulder and I remember her whispering something to me and my heart shattering into a million pieces, why would she ever think that I told myself.

Dixies flashback:

I think I must have passed out for a few minutes because I only remember Noah picking me up of the floor and kissing my forehead softly, he asked me what was wrong, I didn't want to seem stupid but he comforted me and told me he would support me. 'I-i- it's just I'm so scared to loose you, it pains me to look at what life would be without you if anything' I stuttered. By this point I remember calming down and Noah sat me down at the table beside the suitcases. 'I never want to loose you either dix you make me complete, just know that I don't plan on leaving any time soon' I giggled.

Dixie: once I'd calmed down Noah took my hand and led me to the Uber with Addison inside, as sad as it was to leave I couldn't wait for our next adventure together.

Addison: dix hopped inside but she looked tired and on edge, a-are you okay dix I whispered pushing her aside.

Dixie: I looked at Addison, down at the floor and back up again, I'm fine I fake smiled.

Addison: o-oh okay she questioned.

Noah: I hadn't really stopped to think about life recently, it had all gone so fast I couldn't quite believe it. Sitting in the Uber seeing Dixie talk to Addison just about normal teenage things made me feel a little 'normal' for once. Social media was so fast pace and sometimes I don't know if I'm coming or going! however it's all worthwhile I thought, without this experience I wouldn't have met the absolute love of my life and for that I am incredibly thankful.

Dixie: Noah!!!

Noah: my thoughts were quickly interrupted by Dixie telling me we had arrived at the airport.

Addison: once we were inside, Me and dix took a quick trip to the toilet and to get some sweets for the journey.

Dixie: as we rolled our suitcases to the plane I spoke to Addison, I've already chosen my seat, I mocked jokily.

Addison: of course it's next to Noah i roll my eyes.

Noah: she is my girlfriend I said sarcastically.

Dixie: I sat in my seat on the plane and let my body relax, finally some peace I thought.

Noah: are you okay? I- I wanted to check because I know planes...baby I said.

Dixie: yeah-h my voice was shaky and concerned.

Noah: hold my hand your gonna be okay gorgeous I whispered.

Dixie: I nuzzled into Noah's neck and the next thing I knew I was sound asleep.

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Note:-

HEY GUYSSS! yes I'm back sorry for being gone for such a long time :( but I'm back now and I'll try to post updates more often! I've been really really busy but I'm trying my best for you guys! Lemme know what you think there's more good ideas/stuff coming, take care

Em<3