Betrayal

Chapter 13

CHAPTER 13

January has come and gone in a blur. And in case you were wondering, no I haven't told Edward I like him. I know I said I was going to do it and I'm not even going to lie and say there just weren't any opportunity to tell him because, well quite frankly there has been quite a few times that we'd been alone together but I keep backing out at the last minute. That nagging feeling at the back of my head won't go away. Everytime I was even close in bringing it up a negative thought keeps popping up in my mind and I just lose my courage altogether. It's frustrating I know.

Right now I'm led in bed listening to Alice talk about her upcoming date with Jasper on Valentine's Day. Don't get me wrong I am ecstatic that she found that one person she can spend it with who makes her this happy but I can't help feeling a tad jealous. I can't remember the last time I spent Valentine's Day with someone. I'm depressing aren't I?

"Bella are you even listening?" Alice wanted to know.

"What? Of course I am. You were talking about what you think Jasper's gift will be," I said. My mind might've been off to la-la land but I caught most of the things she said.

"Yes but you weren't totally focused. And don't even lie, you know you suck at it," she said smirking. "Thinking about Edward again?"

I blushed instantly, "No."

"Bella what did I say? You're a terrible liar," she said rolling her eyes. "But seriously this is getting ridiculous even for you. You have to talk to him now. If you don't I will."

I immediately sat up and looked at her to see if she's joking. But her face is totally serious. "Um okay I will, sometime this week I promise. Just promise me you won't say anything to him." I don't even want to think what kind of things Alice would tell him.

"Fine. Hey maybe you should ask him to be your valentine?" she said mischievously and winked at me.

I felt my face getting hot all over again.

After that talk with Alice last night I couldn't even look at Edward straight today in English without looking like I put on a ridiculous amount of blusher on my face. Thank God Mr. Mason insisted on working silently today so I had an excuse to not talk to him all lesson.

We were studying Jane Austen this semester. This class was supposed to be used on taking any last minute notes on the novel we've been working on – Sense and Sensibility. I was truly concentrating at first but then I came across the name of the hero of the story – Edward and that's when I lost my concentration. This guy is truly messing with my head. I mean whoever heard of a girl lose his concentration in class because she happened to come across the name of one of her friends in a book? Yeah, pa-the-tic.

I sighed and I must've done it pretty loud because Edward who's sitting right beside me looked over and gave me a curious look. I just put my head down so he doesn't see my flushed face and tried to focus back on my work.

When the bell rang I immediately got all my things together and went out of the classroom as fast and as graceful as I can. Suffice to say I wasn't that successful.

"Bella wait up!" I heard Edward say and jogged towards me. Damn. I had no choice but to wait for him or else it might arise more questions.

"Hey," I mumbled.

"What's up? You okay? Did I do something?" he asked.

"Um no why do you ask that?"

"Well it just looked like your avoiding me. I didn't upset you or anything right?" he asked looking at me.