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                    CHELSEA'S POV

Most times I don't feel like I can breathe without choking  now that Luca is always around. I found out he was also working as an intern in my firm which makes us hang out more, but I couldn't help my memories as they keep flashing back anytime he is around me , I'd always tried to avoid contact but that was hard since we were the only two interns in the firm we were always made to work together. I still remember how angry Tim was when Luca gave me a ride home.
"What was that"he asked as I approached him on the driveway.
"What"I chuckled and halted the embrace I was about to shower on him.
"That" he was pointing at Luca's car,which was almost unseen by now.
"Ooh that was Luca, he just offered me a ride home"I was still keeping my calm even though I was getting a little nervous.
"I know what I saw, I mean why" he was almost yelling now and his eyebrows furrowed. "Really Chelsea is that what you do now, get into the cars of other guys just because I'm unavailable".
"Tim... I.."
"You have nothing to say Chelsea, I know what I saw. Only God fucking knows what went on in that car"he swung his hands in the air.
"I.. I know guys like him, they are of no good princess they jus... they just"he reduced his tone before spluttering again "is it because I'm not black, princess I'd could turn my skin to any colour but that wouldn't change anything,it wouldn't change who I'm he lowered his voice to me once again and walked towards me then held my shoulders, I just wanted to throw myself at him and stop this uncontrolling anger but once again he let out that spark and stepped away from me.
" I don't want this, I don't want to see you with him or with anyone I..."I could feel the anger growing inside of him, I wanted to stop him but I didn't know how to and him thinking I'd leave him because of a reason as stupid as skin colour , the hell I'm not a fucking racist. "I mean if you wanted a car I'd have gotten a goddamn car for you Chelsea, I just don't want you with him, with anyone just me is that too much to ask".
"Tim, you are overreacting he just gave me a lift. I wouldn't have gotten into the car if I knew you'd react this way "I tried talking in the most calm way possible because I knew better than pouring out my anger at this point. I was mad he'd think I'd want to leave him because of his skin colour and did he think of me as a whore that jumped on any guy that comes her way.
"Did you just say overreacting"he laughed in the most annoying way ever."over.. overreacting wow Chelsea" he covered his face with his palms and then left them hanging on his waist "and what about the hug, what about that eerrr. Would you say I was overreacting over that as well".
"C'mon Tim, it was just a friendly hug , what's all these don't you trust me, why wh..."
"You know what, I'm just going to hed home and have a good rest, coming here was a huge mistake " he interrupted me and kept walking till he got into his car and drove off, and I was left there with the comforting sounds of the night . I didn't know what to think, I had never been good at fights I always broke down, I knew I was going to think about it all night till we spoke again and here I was doing the same thing.
it's been three days now, each one of these days felt lonely they always felt incomplete without his voice in my ears, his thousand text messages, his hands on mine , his lips being locked with mine . I was left with his pictures  and my ego, I promised myself I wasn't going to call , I don't remember doing anything wrong in the first place he was the one who  overreacted , he should have listened to me but he didn't and I know mom said I'd get used to it.
"Relationships are always like this baby, you'd get used to it". she packed my hair into a bun as I looked at the mirror.
"But I never saw you and dad fight not even quarrel for once".
"That doesn't mean we didn't have problems, we did a lot actually but we knew better than dragging them to your face, he'd come around okay" she pecked my cheeks.
But this I don't think I can ever get used to this, this loneliness I feel, it's
far beyond what I feel when I don't have my two parents around. I've tried to focus more on work and think less of him, if he didn't want to come back just because of a silly incident it's fine he's not the first to leave me anyways but I knew that was just my self respect, deep down I was breaking. I needed my Tim around.
'beep beep' I heard my alarm ring, it was morning already , I didn't even remember sleeping at all I just laid on my bed all night thinking, thinking of what and how to do without him by my side and that's what I wanted to do all day what was the need of stepping out if I won't run into his arms again but then there was work and Andy, I hadn't really seen her around this past days she'd have definitely knocked the shit out of my head for being this moody because of a guy especially one she despised so much.