Bear

15

Fred put on a muggle film, Dirty Dancing, as we snuggled under the comfort of my duvet, waiting for George. I was laid in between Fred's legs, my back resting against his chest, his arms wrapped around my waist as we lay there, quite content.

As much as i tried to switch my thoughts off and focus on the moment, I couldn't. My brain was flooded with different thoughts.

Does this mean Fred isn't mad at me anymore?

What is the first task going to be?

Why would Jonah kill himself?

Does his mother hate me?

How is his mother?

Am I welcome at the funeral, after all Jonah clearly stated it was my fault

I'm a horrible person, I forgot all about him, I left him, I killed him.
No Evalynne, don't think like that.

What will the Gryffindors think?
What will the Slytherins think?

Oh god what will Draco think?

"Penny for your thoughts?" Fred asked as he pulled me closer. "Which one?" I awkwardly laughed.

"Well all of them"

"Erm okay." And so I explained all of them, although it was awkward telling him my thoughts on him, it helped, until he opened his mouth to 'give advice'. " look Evalynne, don't think on me right now, leave that for later, but you did nothing wrong, you didn't kill anyone, no one will think differently of you." I laughed. "Oh so when I don't even enter my name in a stupid tournament that could get me killed, everyone hates me, but when I drive my best friend to killing himself no one bats an eyelid. How fucked is that. Fuck this, you and George can eat the food, I need to get ready for tonight" I snapped. "Woah calm down Evalynne it's not like that. Wait what's tonight?"

"Actually Fredrick it is like that, and not that it's any of your business but I'm performing a few songs for my friends in the great hall after classes when it's empty." Now it was him who laughed. "I see, so you throw an absolute fit over me telling your friends you can sing and play, but you can go and perform for them, what the fuck Ev, I thought we were friends!"

At this point I had gotten off him and we were both stood yelling. "Oh so now your my friend. I didn't want people to know when my life was normal and was going to last a long time, but now you told people and I might die in this tournament I decided to share it with the people who stuck by me and didn't accuse me of entering and lying about it!" I yelled before grabbing my bag and storming out of my room, slamming the door behind me, he can stay there for all I care, as long as it's not near me.

I marched all the way to the great hall and waited. I scribbled down some random thoughts that I could include in some songs. I then practiced the songs I was going to perform to make sure they were perfect.

- - -

The bell had just rung, signalling the end of lessons and I waited for my friends to arrive. First was Pansy and Blaise, closely followed by Theo and Adrian and finally Draco. They all crowded by the piano. "Right erm this is awkward. I'm just gonna play a few songs and you can like tell me to stop or something I don't know" they all nodded.

"I feel like I should explain so I wrote this song I'm about to play the night we found out that Draco and I were champions and we both spent the night drinking together"

My feet are aching
And your back is pretty tired
And we've drunk a couple bottles, babe
And set our grief aside
The Papers say it's doomsday
The button has been pressed
We're gonna nuke each other up boys
'Til old satan stands impressed