You Are My love (Edited)

Chapter 40

Very disappointing for a writer when some bunch of people enjoy your effort and silently walk out of the sight. I request, if you haven't enjoyed reading my books then don't read it. Or if you did, then you are just one touch away the star button at the extreme left corner down on your screen to appreciate my work.
I hope you all will soon awake your good heart.

Enjoy Reading
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Avni

Didu stated the actual reason to Neil for the urgent call to meet up at this hour. The look he gave I knew he grew annoyed, his face immediately mundane when Didu mentioned the name Ayan.
I summoned up a jittery smile advertng my gaze at Aman then back to Neil. Aman shrugged off as usual the tension was evident over my facade.

Neil heaved a sigh leaned against his seat, covering up his inward discomposure. His focus was straight at Di sitting across him and I didn't feel comfortable throughout this conversation.

Quietly he listened the entire plan wishing-Ayan. His arms crossed over his chest in a manner heedful towards the entire conversation. Despite feeling edgy inside, my eyes were fixed most of the time at Neil. There was a feeling of consternation inside me. I shifted on my seat a little, lurked my gaze around vaguely then back at him.

His gaze attentive towards Didu then shifted to Jiju when he talked few times in the discussion between.
Then at the end conferring when we all are waiting for any response from him, Neil heaved a sigh and noncommittally he said he would try joining us in a tone I know what he meant and then masked it up with his extrovert Neil like smile with Jiju and left excusing he has meeting next hour.

Didu was overly exhilarated as usual with the whole event and I bit my lips in apprehension. I know my man isn't at all with his all heart right now and I'm not liking if he is not willing to do this.

Neil exchanged a look with me before leaving, that was something unnerving. I have totally lost all the enthusiasm, confidence I had before he has come here. Although I was unsure including him into this. But Di never understands.

My mood turned off regarding the entire thing. Our intentions are to make Ayan feel like he is with his second family. And then I'm screwing up with my man in the process. What so dull with him? Don't he trust me or Ayan? Ayan is nowhere close to him, not the way I have plethora of emotions with Neil. Never had for anyone.

Or he is! A voice in my head raised a questionable eye movement.

Okay I agree Ayan is a guy any girl would fall for him in a first meeting. He is successful, good looking and has a rare heart. His demeanor itself is something to admire_None can deny that.
And I like him a lot.

If I haven't fallen for Neil at the first place. Then who could say, it wouldn't have been Ayan.

Like seriously? Where did it even come from! I asked to myself being shockingly irked by my own confession.

Avni are you out of your mind? What the crap was that?

See this is how I react when I get this bemused. The overthinking head get me this, seize my thinking process into some hypothetical stuffs involving absurdity. Now I'm fighting with myself. Great.

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I love Neil that doesn't mean I can't like or praise some other guy. I would definitely like many but not in a passionate way or something like that I feel with my boyfriend. Neither my heart would ever beat as faster as it usually beats being with my Neil. That's the actual divergence with my love if I compare my internal in terms of being with any other guy.
I don't feel with anyone else, the way I do with my Man only.