Performance of a Lifetime

I still shed a tear every once in a while

I rolled over and opened my eyes to an empty bed. I still wasn't used to the fact Harry, or any of the boys, weren't here. School's been hell without them, Sammy's still gone and I'm getting picked on again. Having to walk home's a drag with the paparazzi still following me, and the loneliness has started to kick in. I went down stairs and opened the fridge to get milk for my cereal. "Great." I muttered to myself, there was no milk and I really didn't want to get some. I decided to skip breakfast and laid on the couch instead, not bothering to turn the T.V on. I looked at my reflection in the T.v and saw how..shitty, I looked. My hair was a complete mess, there were more bags under my eyes than usual and my clothes were all distorted. I turned my ipod on and put it on shuffle, and 'I miss you' came on.

"I miss you, I miss your smile and I still shed a tear every once in a while. And even though it's different now, you're still here somehow, my heart won't let you go and I need you to know, I miss you." I sang along ,tearing up. I turned off the ipod and buried my head in the couch letting the tears fall. I wiped my eyes and went to the bathroom to get some toilet paper to blow my nose. As I flushed the used napkin down the toilet my cell phone rang. I ran to the phone hoping it was Harry. "Hello?" I said excitedly.

"Hi, sweetie it's mom!" my mom said. My heart dropped but I was glad to hear my mom's voice.

"Hi, mom." I said, trying not to cry as she babbled on excitedly.

"That's great, mom. Yes, I'm fine. No..I don't know where he is." I said, my voice cracking as tears started to roll down my cheeks.

"Aw, sweetie. It'll be ok, he'll come back. I know he will. But um, we're not going to be back for a while, we extended our vacation for another month. Is that ok?" My mom said. I could barely hear her through my sobs.

"How can you be so sure he'll come back mom? You don't know him or his management. Maybe I was just another girl for publicity. just a publicity stunt, I'm nothing special." I sobbed into the phone as my mom said goodbye. I hung up and flopped onto the couch.

"Just a publicity stunt." I said to myself one last time before falling asleep.

"Hey, Ava. Where's your 'boyfriend'?" Some guys teased and his friends laughed. I shifted the bag on my shoulder and walked faster up the stairs to the door. I opened my locker trying not to cry as I looked at the pictures of Harry and I. I slammed my locker and rushed up to first period just before the bell rang. I looked through my notebook and tears stung at my eyes as I saw all the "I love you Harry"'s were drawn over almost everything. I erased it all and stood up for Oh Canada, the national anthem. 20 minutes into first period I was called down the office. Odd, I thought rushing down the hall. I stopped dead in my tracks when I saw who was there.

"What do you want?" I said, a little too coldly. Not looking into his eyes.

"Ava..I.." he stuttered, shifting his weight from one foot to the other.

"Spit it out, Styles, I don't have time for this." I said, trying again, not to cry.

"I'm sorry, Ava. I really am. But..we can't be together anymore.." he said. I looked up to see if he was lying, hoping he was, but he just wiped a tear from his eye.

"I knew it." I said, turning to walk away.

"Wait!," he called grabbing my arm, "knew what?"

"I was just a publicity stunt. To get more people to notice you. Well congratulations, now that you've got more fans, I'll be going now. Bye, Harry." my voice cracked when I said his name and I pushed past him and ran out the door.

"A large coffee please. 2 sugar, 2 milk." I ordered a coffee from Second Cup and sat down with my coffee. I took small sips, barely noticing how hot it was.

"Is this seat taken?" some one asked. It almost sounded like..

"Niall?" I looked up and Niall sat down, giving me a sympathetic smile.

"Harry told me everything. He said he went to your house but no one was home. They're probably out still looking, but I knew you'd be here." He said, stealing my coffee from me.

"Hey," I said grabbing it back, "that cost me a whole $3.50." he laughed and slid it back over the table.

"Listen, Ava. Harry loves you. You weren't just for publicity, promise!" Niall whisper yelled.

"Does he now? Then why did he and the rest of you just leave? Why didn't you attempt to call me? I know Liam did but why not Harry? Harry texted me once. Once! And then today he broke up with me! You must have a different definition of 'love' than I do. Not that it exists." I practically yelled. I grabbed my cup and threw it in the garbage before I left.

"Bye, Niall." I said leaving the coffee shop.

I had to go somewhere. I couldn't go back to school, I didn't want to face the teachers and the teasing kids. I couldn't go home because they'd be looking for me and I couldn't go to the coffee shop because they'd look for me there too. "Excuse me, miss. Got any change?" someone asked from the side of the road. I felt bad for homeless people. I dug in my pocket for some money and pulled out a $5 bill. "Here." I said handing him the money.

From Niall;

                  hey, where'd you go? We've been looking everywhere!

To Niall;

             just give up Niall. Im not coming back. im sorry..tell the rest of the boys that too and tell Harry I..love him. bye niall

I turned my phone off and put it back in my pocket. I sat at the bus terminal waiting for a bus to take me..somewhere. Since I live in a small city, it's still fairly large, and I know the perfect place to go. I boarded the bus and sat at the very back. I've always liked the back of the bus even when I was a kid. Harry told me how he loved the back of the bus to. Stop thinking about him. I thought to myself. I wiped a tear from my eye and the bus started off.

"Great.." I muttered to myself. I fell asleep on the bus and got off at the wrong stop and now I have no idea where I am.

"Hello?" a familiar voice answered the phone.

"Can you come get me" I asked,

"And just what were you doing down there?" Louis asked as we pulled into my driveway.

"I just wanted to get away from this. From everything and I knew exactly where to go, but I fell asleep and yeah." I said opening the door. Louis shook his head and chuckled, putting my coat in the closet for me.

"Guess who's here?" he said, and Liam, Niall and Zayn bounded towards me, grabbing me into a group hug.

"Don't you ever do that again!" Zayn said tightening his grip.

"Alright sorry...but can you guys loosen up, I can't breath." I said my voice slightly muffled from being squished into Liams chest. They all let go, and they each gave me a single hug.

"You worried us." Liam said while hugging me.

"I'm sorry guys. Really, I just needed time to think and.." my voice trailed off as I began to sob again. I wiped away my tears and pretended I was coughing and went to the kitchen to get a drink.

"Where's Harry?" I asked while pouring a glass of juice.

"Flight 182 for London now boarding." the lady on the intercom said.

"Hurry!" I said as we rushed through the crowd. How were we supposed to find Harry in this big of crowd? Especially when the boys kept getting stopped by fans. "Where are you, Harry?" I said under my breath. I looked behind me to see if the boys were still following, but of course, they got stopped by fans. I kept searching through the crowd but couldn't find him anywhere. "Flight 182 now leaving." the lady said. I walked over to a bunch and sat down. Why did he leave? Was it my fault? I put my head in my hands and starting crying. "I'm so sorry, Harry." I whispered to myself.

"Ava?"