7 hari sebelum 17 tahun -17.03.21-

<regretting>

four hours left,and i already regretting my self.
this stupid action and words that burst from my whole fckin body, really make me wanna buried my self.

semakin aku sadar se'tolol' apa aku ini,semakin aku yakin kalau sebenarnya aku ini hanya 'too much' bullshit mankind,yang which is berkedok 'perasa'

again,i can't control my self,again

i can't take control whole of my self.
it's already figured out, that i just a stupid human

making someone or maybe everybody mad,
i think that's my capabilities
there's nothing I can do with that
i can't never deal with it,even when I'm trying

the decision that you take presently, really decide your whole fucking future

i remember someone repeatedly said,
'when u mad,u take a wrong decision'
and it did.
i regret my self for it.

then again I realized another someone said,
'shut up for some times when u are mad,if u wanna make a great decision'
and it hit me

to be honest,
'ego' is the thing that u can't handle with constantly.

it does make me crazy

again,
fck seventeen,
I'm already regretting
even when I'm on my way.

Tuesday,16th of March 21
~7 hari sebelum 17 tahun~

MsX