Ash's little sister☺(L.H.)

Chapter 24☺

Today was the day 4 years since my Big brother Troy Committed suicide.

I remember it like it was yesterday, He was bullied at school because he was dyslexic and schizophrenic.

It was too much for him to handle, His girlfriend had recently cheated on him with his best friend.

She broke him, I warned him about her but he wouldn't listen, He never did.

After that he started hanging around with these guys, I only never one of their names as he was always around my house.

Brent, He was an asshole in my opinion, Always in trouble. He kind or reminds me of James.

Anyway he started getting into Drugs and Alcohol, He was out every night and wasn't coming home until the next morning, Sometimes he even went missing for a few days.

He was sleeping around with random girls, He was getting into fights all the time, He would always come home with a black eye or and busted nose and of course I was the one who had to clean him up since mum worked late.

He turned to Drugs to take the pain away, he would say. He was injecting, Snorting, Smoking you name it be had done it.

He saw himself as a Crazy Failure. I tried to help him, Even Ashton tried but he wouldn't let us help him. He shut everyone out.

I was the one who found him, 13 year old me

decided to check on him as he had not came down  from his room all morning.

I had made him soup and tea I even brought him some painkillers as I knew he would need them.

I knocked on the door, waiting for a moment before walking in, I opened the door slightly just in case he was changing.

But what I saw will never leave me until the day I die.

There he was my beautiful big Brother, He lifeless body hanging from a rope, I dropped the soup and the bowl and the cup they smashed to pieces and scattered all over the floor.

His face was pale, His brown hair flat along his forehead, He was so cold.

"No Troy, what have you done" I began to cry wishing it wasn't real wishing it was a nightmare and that I could just wake up and everything was back to normal.

"Ashton!" I started screaming for help, He was to heavey for me to lift down, "Ash help me, Its Troy!".

"What, What's Wr".... Ashton froze in the doorways of Troys bedroom.

"What happened" He asked his voice cracking, "I don't know Ash" I replied my head hanging low.

"Come on we need to get him down", Ash helped me get him down and we layed him on the bed.

I held his hand for a while, It was freezing but I didn't care, Both me and Ashton sat there in silence letting tears fall freely just trying to take everything in.

"We need to call and ambulance, Jesus Christ weres the phone!" Ashton began to panic.

"Its too late Ash, He's....He's gone" Tears brimmed in Ashton's Eyes  as he held Troys hand sobbing on his chest.

We both knew what was coming, We would have to phone my mum and break the news, Neither of us wanted to but we just knew we had to.

My mum was on a business trip in London, We both rang her, It was so hard to hear my mum cry through the phone, She blamed herself.

She got on the first flight back to Sydney and arrived home the next day.

Me and My brother had always been so close, he was always there for me and I was always there for him,