Blinded By His Light (Harry Styles) -On Hold-

Chapter 4: If Looks Could Kill

(A/N So Harry is finally going to be in this chapter. I know it's been a long wait but I promise it's going to be worth it. Don't forget to vote.)

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"I wish never to be parted from this day forward" Mr. Darcy

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The week seemed to go by slowly. I tried not to show it but as the week went on my anxiety about the party only grew. I know Liam will probably want to babysit me the whole time but I don't want him to. I'm almost eighteen I need to learn how to handle situations on my own. Also I don't want to ruin his night.

I hope they don't want to stay all night. What if they want me to DD; I'm a nervous driver. If I drove with two drunks in the back I'd get us all killed. I shake my head trying to clear my thoughts. It will probably be me just standing in a corner, sipping on some water, waiting for the both of the to finish partying.

Thinking back to Tuesday at lunch when I ask them if they wanted to go to Louis party; as soon as I asked Liam and Niall if they wanted to go they both instantly said yes. Of course Liam questioned me making sure I was alright with going to such an event. I tried at play it off reminding him that I was the one who asked him but I don't think he bought it.

Still yet it's Friday night and I'm in the back seat of Liam's car fight the vomit in the back of my throat. I can't believe I'm actually doing this but at the same time I'm kind of proud. This should be the first step in being socially okay again.

"Kin, are you sure you want to do this? Your nightmares have been getting worse and I really don't mind staying home with you. We could watch the office." Liam says to me through the rear view mirror.

I almost take him up on his offer. The thought of being cuddled up on the couch with Liam beside me, while he's making comments about the TV shows characters is extremely tempting. Also he is right, my nightmares have been getting worse and to be honest I think it's from stressing about this party.

Just as in about to tell Liam to turn the car around and take us home, I see Niall out of the corner of my eye. He completely deflated when Liam made the offer to me. I can't bring myself to take this away from Niall like that. And I know Liam wanted to go too by how fast he said yes on Tuesday, he's just nervous about what's going to happen.

"Liam, thanks but I really think I'm going to have a good time. Besides maybe Emma or someone will be there. You haven't talked to a girl other than me all summer." I say trying to take his mind off me so he can enjoy this party.

Before Liam really has a opportunity to say anything we a parking in a line of cars. I look around to just how many people are there and it surprises me. Nearly everybody from our school must be there and then some.

"Kinna, you know I don't want Emma anymore," Liam says, pulling me out of thought. When I turn my head to face him Niall is already out of the car and heading toward a crowd of boys and Liam is avoiding eye contact. Instantly I know I have hit a nerve. The guilt starts to take over my body and before I realize what I'm doing I'm trying to apologize.

"Liam I didn't mean it that way. I just-" but before I can even finish Liam cuts me off.

"Kin, I know. I'm just not really looking for anything like that right now. You should understand that more than anyone. I'm just trying to wait." Liam tells me. Now he turned his whole body from the front seat to the back just so he could give me his puppy eyes. And I do understand, to be honest I just didn't expect this from his at all.

"Okay, Liam, I understand," I say as I grab the door handle; in a hurry to get out of the situation I just put myself in. But I'm stopped before I get to far.

"Kinna, before you leave, don't think I'm nosy but what's going on between you and Louis. At school he's always around you?" There is a strange tone in Liam's voice; he almost sounds angry. And his question is a surprise to me. I thought Liam knew if I had something to tell him I would.

"Nothing, you know if I had something like that to tell you I would, right?" It's like my words bring Liam back to earth and his eyes once again soften and he shakes his head.

I send him a small smile and open the door. Getting out on the same side as Liam, he is standing in front of me. He holds out his hand for me to take but I shake my head.

"Kim..." He starts but I'm quick to stop him.

"Li, you don't need to babysit me the whole night. I want you to have fun with your friends, you know, other than me. And Ill try to need new people. If you want we can text the whole time though." Liam pouts but nods his head in agreement.

I ask Liam to take me to the kitchen. Ever since freshman year, the kitchens have been my hide out at parties. The plan is to stand in a corner and wait for Liam and Niall to get finished partying.

I stood in my corner with a cup of water so nobody could offer me a drink. I know that it sounds terribly boring but it wasn't to bad, watching drunken teens make stupid mistakes can be quite comical.

"Kinna!" I heard and overly excited voice slur my name. I turn to see a drunk Louis smiling at me from across the kitchen. I returned the smile and hoped he would leave me to me crowd watching. Of course I wasn't that lucky. He continued to smile at me with glazed eyes as he made his way toward me.

"I looked all over for you. I thought you had decided to blow me off."

Unsure of how to handle a drunk Louis I just smiled and replied with a simple, "No, I'm just trying to stay out of everyone's way."

After that Louis didn't leave my side for a whole thirty minutes, stroking my hair, complimenting me, and asking about myself in general.

That was until two other boys walked in the room. The first boy leading the was looked a freaking model. I jawline flawless and tanned skin. His eyes were a deep brown and perfectly styled up. He looked to be in his early twenties.

When I turned to look at the other boy, he was already starting daggers through me. His facial expression was terrifying. He had dark curly hair that was pushed back over his head. Almost like he couldn't be bothered to do anything with it. I could see that color of his because they his pupils had expanded so much. Feeling fear creep up my spine, I grab my phone to text Liam.

When I pick up my phone I already have four missed text.

Liam: Kinna are you okay?
Liam: Don't talk to Zayn or Harry.
Liam: Kinna why the hell aren't you texting back
Liam: Kinna I'm finding Niall and we're leaving.

I was so confused by Liam's texts. Who is Zayn and Harry? Why is it such a big deals? Why is he so worked up? I stood there and stared at my phone trying to think of how to respond. Then I felt Louis lips against my ears as he said, "He's so protective over you, love."

A blush took over my face. I rashes my head up looking for Liam only to meet eyes with the boy with curly hair. His eyes never leaving me. That is until Liam bust in basically dragging a drunk Niall.

"Kinna, you and Niall get your asses in the car." I was stunned and scared. I couldn't believe Liam was actually talking to me that way but I didn't argue and I dragged Niall towards the exit. I could still hear Liam though.

"Tomlinson, I talk to you later. Styles, you even lays as much as one figure on my Kinna and I will kill you."

A husky laugh erupted from the kitchen. "Liam you damn well she's not yours. Never was and never will be but I believe you should focus more on Tomlinson. If you don't kick his ass first, I sure as hell will."

I was disgusted. How could they talk like that. I was so mad that I had to fight the tears back as I tried to strap Niall in. After about five minutes Liam finally came out. Niall passed out in the front seat and I refused to speak or look at Liam.

That night was the first night that I had ever fell asleep mad at Liam.