feelings ☽ [Seungmin SKZ]

10

I woke up early for the exam that day.

I tried studying but I was tired.

As I got my stuff ready in the library, someone placed a soda in front of me.

I looked up to find Seungmin.

We hadn't seen each other in so long- it felt weird to be in front of him again.

I knew exactly what he was going to do next, but I still stayed to watch-

He warmly smiled at me.

I didn't know what to do.,

"Good luck" was all he said before turning around and walking off.

I couldn't concentrate during the exam, I kept staring at the soda next to me.

I was sure I had failed because of him.

But I was too tired to care about grades.

Weeks later I began applying for college.

I heard he had applied to his dream college.

-So I applied there too.

Turns out, I didn't do as bad as I had thought

Colleges actually wanted me.

I still had the soda he gave me sitting on my nightstand.

I turned and twisted in my own bed for days until I got fed up.

I canceled my application and threw away the soda he gave me.

I thought that's what I was meant to do to move on.

But I felt no difference.