Being Different

There's A Queer In The House

"You're up early." Lexi said as she walked into my room.

"Yeah, I was tired so I fell asleep right away" ,I lied. I spent the whole night wondering what had happened between my sister and Shelby. Maybe it was just a dare, or they were playing a stupid game. Or maybe, my sister that become different. Maybe Shelby was different. I was going to ask Lexi right away, but I hesitated and thought it over once more. I wanted to ask, but something held me back. Instead I said, "You are up early. You were so drunk yesterday, I thought you were never coming home".

Lexi looked at me and rolled her eyes. "You didn't tell mom did you?"

"No, I'm not a snitch like you"

"Oh please. Wait, how did you come home last night?"

"Shelby dropped me off." She nodded. This was my chance. "So, Shelby. How did you two meet?"

"I thought you were there to meet Louis not Shelby" she said in an annoyed tone.

I didn't say anything.

"I know what you want to ask Shan. Just go ahead and ask it, I will tell you everything"

My eyes widened. What was she implying? Was it the situation, or was it something else? I wanted to ask, but what if that isn't what Lexi is talking about. "Just tell me already"

"Okay fine." She sat on the corner of my bed and lowered her tone and said, "I am bisexual". I froze. I didn't know what to say. "You- you- you - what?". "Yes, I like women." I couldn't take this information in. "actually, I like women, even more than men". I wanted her to stop talking. "And Louis is the only guy I have dated". I could barely understand the words coming out of her mouth after that. "I..wa...wth..grl..nem..toni..or...to...ear......" she went on, until I said loudly, "Stop". She stopped talking and stared into my eyes. She noticed the uncomfortable expression I had on my face. I saw her face go from happy, to serious. "Don't tell me you believe what mom says about being different", she said. I didn't say anything. "Fuck you!", she said with frustration in her voice. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry". She stormed out of the room and slammed the door loud, causing me to cry for a while.

I didn't leave my room until lunch. I made my self a sandwich and went back to my room and ate it. Lexi had left the house. Maybe she is out with Louis, or she is preparing for a wedding, or she might even be with Shelby. I wanted to apologize to here, but first I had to visit the hospital to check up on mum. So, I left my house and took a bus to the hospital and watched my mum sleep for a while. Then, I was about leave when I heard her groan. "Good morning"

"It's 2pm mom"

"Oh were you leaving?"

"I want to stay mom I really do, but I have to take care of the house, don't I?"

She smiled. "I don't want to be alone".

"I'll call Brian"

Brian. My mum's boyfriend. Currently, we live with Brian and his son Chuck, but I don't think Brian will afford to keep us, since he lost his job recently. I like Brian. He always tries to get a smile or a laugh out of me whenever my mum falls sick. He remembers every tiny detail about me, my mum and even Lexi. Even though he has only met Lexi once. But, unlike Brian, his son Chuck, is extremely annoying. He is always in my business. Knocking my door after a fight with my mum, bringing me food when I'm sick, trying to have a conversation when I want to be alone. He bugs me a lot.

"No need" I heard from the door. I turned my head around and smiled. There Brian was, standing with flowers and chocolates. "You can go home Shan, I got it from here".

"Thanks Brian" I smiled at him and went back home on another bus.

When I reached home, I saw Shelby's car outside the house. This was the moment, I knew, I shouldn't enter the house. Lexi probably told Shelby about everything, and they probably think I am against people being different. I turned away from the house and started walking away. I speed-walked until I bump into someone suddenly. To my surprise, it was Shelby. 

"Hey hey, calm down, where are you headed?" she said putting her hands on my shoulders. I took a step back causing her arms to drop. She realized what I had done, and her face went serious. 

"I'm sorry" I said. "For bumping into you". And the other thing  I thought to myself but couldn't bring myself to say it.

"It's okay. Come on, your sister invited me over, and I went to buy some cigarettes and alcohol" she said, picking up a bag that had fallen on the floor. One of the beers had broken. 

"I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to break it"

"It's okay"

"No, I should pay, or buy you another one"

"It's okay, calm down, pay me by actually having a drink today will you?"

I chuckled. I finally realized that I hadn't said anything to her yesterday, and hadn't even waved her goodbye. I felt my stomach slightly ache. Guilt I think. But it wasn't a pain that hurt and rather one that I liked. I didn't know what it was, but I chose to believe it was guilt.

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hey guys, i even put up shelby's instagram, do you guys wanna see anyone elses? Please tell me your thoughts on this chapter, and don't hesitate on telling me if I have made any mistakes. I actually just got my periods, so my girlfriend helped me out on this chapter, so shout out to her. If you're reading this, thanks bby. How is everyone doing?